my weekend

well i said i'd post about the weekend...i've built it up now and its not that interesting!!

aside from the obvious excitement that it was cassie's 18th birthday!
she had a party for her family and friends on saturday night which was alot of fun. until it got near the end.
i'd said i would drive 2 of my mates jenny and gemma home at about 12.30 (when the party ended). except then jenny said she'd stay a bit later and then they would walk home.
obviously i objected to this! no way was i gonna let the two of them walk home on their own at 1am, especially since they were both somewhat drunk.
you guys want to know jenny's solution to this? she got two guys she knows to come meet her at the party to walk her home.
this was an even worse idea!! it took me aaaaaages to persuade her to get in the damn car! eventually i got her in the car and got her and gemma home...which meant i got home at 1.30am!! later than i'd said and so the parentals were worried, luckily they understood once i'd explained.

i love that girl but she does not give a thought to her own safety when she's drunk. it was frustrating but i guess kinda worked out in the end.

of course along with a visit from my godparents and their little boy, and space in the evening. i ended up very tired which then made me feel ill on monday.
i'm feeling better today, tired but better.
both my lessons were kinda cancelled today (theatre teacher wasnt there so we got sent home with some work to do. psych teacher wasnt there and no work left for us) so i've spent most of today doing my theatre essay. i've just finished...its not long enough or good enough but i'm going to send it to my teacher and then can rewrite it when i get her comments.

space was good, we were planning the youth service on sunday. i'm giving a testimony, not a clue what i'm going to say. will sit down and work it out at some point! its a good testimony from new wine, plus it helps introduce me to the congregation as a pastoral assistant for next year!

i'm going to go do some psychology work. then i'm going to pilates later...should be relaxing hopefully!
much love xxxx

not-so-woo-hoo

i'm off school ill today :( my throat and head hurts...i think the fact that i'm very tired doesnt help. am going to try and go in this afternoon.
anyway was just posting to say that i was going to post a very long weekend blog but my head hurts so am just going to leave the computer alone.
much love xxx

a-woo-hoo!

i just found out i've got an A in my psychology coursework!!!
also i handed in my english dissertation :) (i wont have got an A in that!)

thats my second A in the last 6 weeks!! hehe :D
am very happy and smiling alot!!!

much love xxxxx

typical!

this afternoon the phone rang and it was my brother asking me to pick him up from rowing as he'd hurt his leg.
on the way there i was thinking 'what an idiot'
but he's actually hurt it lol. i ended up taking him to minor injuries after i saw he was in pain and it needed checking out (not that he'd listen to me, i had to phone mum to get her to tell him it needed checking out!)
he's strained a muscle/ligament by his knee. its not serious but its painful. it means he's on crutches for a week and off rowing for 2-4 weeks...if you know my brother at all you will be right in thinking he's pretty gutted.
hopefully we're going to get him to a physio and go from there.

it meant i spent my afternoon and evening playing maid/nurse/bag-carrier/chef/chauffeur!
i feel bad for him coz it obviously hurts alot :(

anyway i'd better go finish printing out my dissertation so i can hand it in tomorrow! then thats all my coursework out the way :D
much love xxxxxxxxx

kinda freaked

this is probably going to sound stupid but i have to let the emotions out somewhere.

i just came up to my room and it was dark, and my brother kinda just came out of the darkness. he'd gone in to my room to get his phone charger and i didnt expect him to be there.
he didnt mean to scare me but he did. for a split second it wasnt my brother it was a stranger in my room. i've just cried alot. my mum walked me back in and i was just about ok with the light off but door open but when she closed the door it just made me cry more, really didnt like it. hopefully in the morning i'll be ok. but it really scared me because its my home and i should feel safe in my home but for a second i didnt.

tonight i'm sleeping with my door open and i'm sure i'll feel better in the morning. its just one of those moments where your body and emotions react and my fear came out in lots of tears.
thats it. anna's been lovely and sent me a cyber hug :) which has helped. my mum prayed with me and i know i can always go find her if i wake up and am scared.
send your love and cyber hugs my way! xxx

you gotta love birthdays!

its my mate cassie's 18th on wednesday and her party on saturday. and i've just put together all her presents :) i got her like 5 things hehe coz she's amazing and you only turn 18 once! i didnt even spend stupid amounts of money either!
i'd tell you what i got her but then if she happened to read this it would ruin it for her.

on another very exciting note, tomorrow i go to see mcfly!!!!!!!!
i'm extremely excited! its gonna be an amazing show i think, i've heard their shows so far have been fab :)

anywho i'm off to 'curves' in a minute, i've just joined this women's workout club which is looking like it might work for me. only 30 mins long and worked for my aunt.
so yeah i'm gonna go!
much love xxxxxxxxx

ah school

i'm back tomorrow. at least for the morning lesson. coz larkmead havent managed to be in sync with jms and fitz for their inset days so i have to go do drama theory at 9am.
really cant be bothered! although i suppose it'll be kinda a build up to getting back into school.

this whole term is going to be constant revision methinks. but in 11 weeks i will be done! completely and utterly! and i even get study leave in about 6 weeks possibly...hopefully anyway!
and i'm going to america the week after i finish so i gotta look forward! the last term flew by so hopefully this one does too!

then i'll be doing new wine, holiday club and girlies holiday. then gap year.
i feel like i'm in limbo! most of my friends are either going to uni or going away from abingdon and i'm staying. and i dont regret staying here but i feel kinda like i'm drifting along in limbo. tis very weird.

anyway i'm gonna go watch some tv then go to bed, need sleep!
much love xxxx