i've read two books these last couple of days and they are part of a series, i havent even read them in order hehe but i really learned alot from them.
they were about this family that go through alot of tough things but rely on god.
and it wasnt the relying on god part that got to me coz i rely on god alot. it was the way they prayed.
in bed going to sleep, they prayed. when one of the guys hugged his wife, he prayed for them. everything they did, they prayed.
i pray to god when i need him or when i need to rant at someone.
simple every day things i tend to leave out.
so i decided to make a decision, an effort to pray more. and to be open about praying more. i want to pray about everything, an open conversation with god.
it isnt going to be easy. even today i've ignored him on several occasions.
even tonight when i was at the vertigo event i saw a cute guy and got distracted from god. it sounds so stupid and shallow but its those things that i let get in the way.
i was also praying about a friend and proverbs 31 came to mind. its all about being a woman of god. i've always thought of myself as a child of god. but i also have to realise that i am a woman of god too. i am growing up and i want to be someone god is proud of, someone he raised well. i want to be a living example of him.
it is not going to be an overnight change but i want to do it.
i really want to be passionate for god. not just go to new wine, spring harvest, do my gap year, kind of passionate in phases. i want to be on-fire for him.
i've got an idea to ask a friend of mine if we can be accountable to each other. each week we can talk through how things are going. i have a new-found inspiration for god. especially in the midst of my exams, i'm turning to him in ways i havent before.
anyway i ought to go get some sleep! got more revision to do tomorrow and a drama to write. pray for me that this seed god has planted the last couple of days continues to grow.
its not a major revelation like the blog title suggests, its almost a renewal of passion for god.
much love xxxx
2 comments:
Thats fantastic. This is what I was trying to get at last Sunday. I'm really pleased for you.
I know and i think thats what started off the thinking about it and then the books kind of made it clear.
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