So I'm back from New Wine...have been for several days but I have unfortunately been very bad with my blog :(
New Wine was amazing- good friends, good weather...very good God.
He gave me so many truths and so many promises and I let him in to be my everything. My beloved. Despite being young, I want a husband and a family so badly. I was born to be a mum, if you know me at all then you probably know that. But I needed to let God be enough for me. I needed to be ok with it being just God and me. I think I needed to let this happen before God would even think about giving me a boyfriend.
And I let it happen...I let him in, I let myself feel loved...and more importantly, I felt like I deserved that love. I also decided not to go speed-dating this year.
God has a plan for me, a plan to prosper and not to harm me, a plan to give me a hope and a future.
I trust that. I trust Him.
It's not going to be easy...I often daydream about meeting the man for me...and I think that's still ok. I just need to make sure it doesn't become bigger than God.
New Wine was also a time of great fellowship- late night drinks, boys playing strip poker, pub quizzes. It was full of amazing worship, good talks, interesting seminars. It brought me new friends and reconnections with old ones. One seminar even got me excited about my dissertation!
Now I'm back in reality: a place of deadlines, dissertation work, friendship dramas (although that's been resolved now thankfully!), and stupid laptops that won't work.
I'm glad I delayed writing this blog because reality was starting to creep back in and I needed an excuse to remember all the things I learnt last week.
The most important being: when I'm stressed and trying to control things I need to take a breath and run to my heavenly daddy, put my arms up to him and let him lift me out of the situation.
Much love xxx
1 comment:
If there was a 'like' button, I would have liked this blog :) xxxxxx
Post a Comment