'The Fear'

So yesterday I got the writing bug...that feeling like I want to sit down and do some work, so I jumped on that feeling and went to work on my dissertation.

Unfortunately as I started work my head went a bit crazy and was jumping all over the place with all the different jobs I need to do. So I wrote out my plan for the next 3 weeks...which is when I realised that I only have 3 weeks to finish my dissertation!
Plus my skeleton portfolio is due in at the same time...



Which lead me to the next feeling- I got 'The Fear'


'The Fear' is that constant nagging feeling in the back of your mind that you have dissertation work to do. It is there regardless of what you're doing. You can feel it in your stomach, in your chest, all over your body infact. It is both positive and negative. It is motivating and terrifying. In order to do your dissertation it is important to have 'The Fear' but it is also not a fun feeling at all.


'The Fear' has hit me full force and I have realised how little time I have left to write my dissertation. Plus I've been busy so I'm tired, and I'm still going to be busy and am on placement and I still want to enjoy the last bit of university...it's a little overwhelming.

It also makes me really unmotivated to go to placement, because as much as I'm enjoying placement, I'd much rather sleep and do dissertation work. It just really limits my flexibility and my time.

I think I just need to sit down and work out my week- I feel much more in control when I've done that which always makes me calmer...I am such a control freak sometimes!

Much love xxx