My mum has blogged about what a difference sunshine makes (http://kalbrombley.blogspot.com/2009/06/what-difference-some-sunshine-makes.html) and I have to second that sentiment :)
I haven't really done anything today and I'm very happy with that! This week for me is all about relaxing and recooperating after a busy week last week. I have some things on this week but nothing major- just bits and pieces.
But sunshine makes a difference :) it means that everyone is happier and because it's the summer the sunshine lasts right into the evening which is very nice!
This is just a short blog but that's ok, it's nice to write a short and happy blog rather than a long blog full of grief...and it's especially nice today coz we're in the countdown to Dad being home (6 days!)...it's the first trip where I've really missed him and I'm sure that's because of all the stuff with Grandma and Grandpa but I think it's brought us all closer...I don't really know what I'm trying to say...never mind!
Enjoy the sunshine!
Much love xxx
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
Monday, 22 June 2009
To Wales and back again
Yesterday PJ and I drove to Wales to pick up Hannah (his Hannah) from Snowdon where she had just completed the 3 peak challenge (well done to her!!), now I love Wales, I do, but that was a loooooong drive! She is completely worth it, of course :) but it was 4 and a half hours each way!
Fortunately Hannah finished later than we thought she would so I had a good couple of hours break in between, small doze in the car and lots of food & caffiene to keep my energy up!
I even managed to let PJ have a sleep on the way back, Hannah was always going to sleep but PJ was there to keep me awake...however the delay meant we weren't home until 1am and with PJ having school today I wanted to let him have a bit of a sleep and it wasn't until the last hour that I really needed someone to talk to.
My back aches and I'm still tired today but I slept well and it was good to be in Wales again :D literally as soon as we crossed the border everything became so Welsh! the scenery and the people and everything! I love it!
I bought a small souvenier, of course :)
I had to get Mum to cancel my nurse's appointment this morning (it's time for my 6 monthly blood test) because I knew I couldn't handle getting up early for it! I'll have to rebook but it's not urgent.
Today I plan to watch tv, see a couple of friends maybe, play Sims 3 and mostly just mooch around and relax a bit.
Busy week last week and long trip yesterday means that I am very very happy that this week is quieter :)
In other news, the submission workshop I had on Friday has scared the hell outta me and I've joked about quitting social work and doing fine art instead...I don't mean it obviously but suddenly I've realised how much work there is for next year! I knew it was coming but it's still alot of information to get in one day!
Dad's coming home in a week :D in fact this time in a week I'll be picking him up from the airport! which I'm very happy about. Grandpa is still alive but definitely getting worse, having more bad days and needing more meds. At this point though it's looking like Dad will be home by the time he dies which is a good thing I think. Mum did point out that it could time out that he dies just before PJ and I go to America...I hadn't thought about that...I always thought it would happen way before that...I think we'd still go, Grandpa wouldn't want us to cancel a trip like that for him, but it'd be hard.
Anyway, that's a thought for another day...today I'm just going to relax :)
Much love xxx
Fortunately Hannah finished later than we thought she would so I had a good couple of hours break in between, small doze in the car and lots of food & caffiene to keep my energy up!
I even managed to let PJ have a sleep on the way back, Hannah was always going to sleep but PJ was there to keep me awake...however the delay meant we weren't home until 1am and with PJ having school today I wanted to let him have a bit of a sleep and it wasn't until the last hour that I really needed someone to talk to.
My back aches and I'm still tired today but I slept well and it was good to be in Wales again :D literally as soon as we crossed the border everything became so Welsh! the scenery and the people and everything! I love it!
I bought a small souvenier, of course :)
I had to get Mum to cancel my nurse's appointment this morning (it's time for my 6 monthly blood test) because I knew I couldn't handle getting up early for it! I'll have to rebook but it's not urgent.
Today I plan to watch tv, see a couple of friends maybe, play Sims 3 and mostly just mooch around and relax a bit.
Busy week last week and long trip yesterday means that I am very very happy that this week is quieter :)
In other news, the submission workshop I had on Friday has scared the hell outta me and I've joked about quitting social work and doing fine art instead...I don't mean it obviously but suddenly I've realised how much work there is for next year! I knew it was coming but it's still alot of information to get in one day!
Dad's coming home in a week :D in fact this time in a week I'll be picking him up from the airport! which I'm very happy about. Grandpa is still alive but definitely getting worse, having more bad days and needing more meds. At this point though it's looking like Dad will be home by the time he dies which is a good thing I think. Mum did point out that it could time out that he dies just before PJ and I go to America...I hadn't thought about that...I always thought it would happen way before that...I think we'd still go, Grandpa wouldn't want us to cancel a trip like that for him, but it'd be hard.
Anyway, that's a thought for another day...today I'm just going to relax :)
Much love xxx
Friday, 19 June 2009
ooooh...
I woke up this morning and realised I should do a short blog- the reason I've been writing in mine so much is with Dad in America and the time difference, our family has pretty much been keeping each other up to date through our blogs (handy thing, the internet...)
So Wednesday went well, Ruth looked gorgeous and I had fun with her, Val and Shelby-Lou who is getting cuter each time I see her!
Yesterday I had a training day at work which turned out better than I thought! With no kids there and more staff than normal around (coz we were being trained) it was like there was something in the air and all we did was make jokes and laugh! which wasn't good when we were trying to be trained so we had to calm ourselves a bit...but that went out the window when we got the chance to hoist each other! which is one of the scariest things I've ever done! but so much fun too :D
And then I met Teresa & Claire to go see our house!!! Claire's first time seeing it and she loved it (which is good coz we already signed contracts!) and our landlord went over some details with us and we're all very excited about 'our house' now!
After that we had dinner out with another friend and then came back to mine to watch a movie (tried to watch Hairspray but Claire didn't like it...I know, I was shocked too...so watched 50 first dates instead which was alot of fun).
Today I'm off to another workshop at uni, so I'm up already, Claire & Teresa are about to get up so that I can drop them in Oxford on my way in. It's been alot of fun seeing them and it's a shame we haven't had much time together...this is my fault coz I ended up much busier this week than I planned and with things I couldn't cancel :(
Never mind!
This weekend I'm using Saturday to sleep and re-cooperate and also finish the study (final touches need doing), oh and I need to food shop. And on Sunday PJ and I are off to Snowden to pick up Hannah after her 3 peaks challenge! Should be a fun road trip :D
Especially if you guys remember my last trip to Wales...(I just went to find the link to the blog I wrote about it and suddenly realised I never blogged about it!)
Right, off to have some breakfast...
Much love xxx
So Wednesday went well, Ruth looked gorgeous and I had fun with her, Val and Shelby-Lou who is getting cuter each time I see her!
Yesterday I had a training day at work which turned out better than I thought! With no kids there and more staff than normal around (coz we were being trained) it was like there was something in the air and all we did was make jokes and laugh! which wasn't good when we were trying to be trained so we had to calm ourselves a bit...but that went out the window when we got the chance to hoist each other! which is one of the scariest things I've ever done! but so much fun too :D
And then I met Teresa & Claire to go see our house!!! Claire's first time seeing it and she loved it (which is good coz we already signed contracts!) and our landlord went over some details with us and we're all very excited about 'our house' now!
After that we had dinner out with another friend and then came back to mine to watch a movie (tried to watch Hairspray but Claire didn't like it...I know, I was shocked too...so watched 50 first dates instead which was alot of fun).
Today I'm off to another workshop at uni, so I'm up already, Claire & Teresa are about to get up so that I can drop them in Oxford on my way in. It's been alot of fun seeing them and it's a shame we haven't had much time together...this is my fault coz I ended up much busier this week than I planned and with things I couldn't cancel :(
Never mind!
This weekend I'm using Saturday to sleep and re-cooperate and also finish the study (final touches need doing), oh and I need to food shop. And on Sunday PJ and I are off to Snowden to pick up Hannah after her 3 peaks challenge! Should be a fun road trip :D
Especially if you guys remember my last trip to Wales...(I just went to find the link to the blog I wrote about it and suddenly realised I never blogged about it!)
Right, off to have some breakfast...
Much love xxx
Wednesday, 17 June 2009
Strange feeling
This morning I got woken up by my alarm and immediately started to move out of bed 'I need to get up, have a shower, get ready to go, I need to leave in like...oh not for another hour and a half!' so I laid back down and allowed myself to wake up naturally.
I'd deliberately set my alarm so I'd have loads of time but my first thought was that I had to rush coz I must have somewhere to be soon.
After a few weeks of lie-in's and then the last 6 days of getting up early, my body clock is just very confused...it was strange!
And now I've suddenly realised that I need to leave in half an hour...how did I just waste that last hour!
I'm off to Trowbridge for Ruth's wedding dress fitting which should be good fun, nice to see her again and can't wait to see this dress!
Much love xxx
I'd deliberately set my alarm so I'd have loads of time but my first thought was that I had to rush coz I must have somewhere to be soon.
After a few weeks of lie-in's and then the last 6 days of getting up early, my body clock is just very confused...it was strange!
And now I've suddenly realised that I need to leave in half an hour...how did I just waste that last hour!
I'm off to Trowbridge for Ruth's wedding dress fitting which should be good fun, nice to see her again and can't wait to see this dress!
Much love xxx
Monday, 15 June 2009
Flat
Today was an interesting day- I am still so pleased about my results but it doesn't take away from the fact that I still feel flat.
I'm tired and teary and I don't have the energy to slap on my happy face and pretend to be enjoying myself.
I either need to be around people who distract me with stupid conversations about nothing or people who I can be honest with about how much I'm struggling...and some people don't fit either of those categories and it's not their fault but I don't have the energy to carry the conversations or make an effort sometimes and that unfortunately results in a breakdown of communication.
I do have good moments...honestly I do, it's not just doom and gloom...just now I said something to PJ that wasn't that funny but it had me in giggles for about 5 minutes. And that felt good :) just to be distracted by unrelated stuff- and that doesn't include hearing about other people's problems...it's hard to care about some of my friends mundane problems when I'm feeling this grief, and I feel bad coz any other time I would be right there to give the 'good friend' advice but right now I can't and frankly if they haven't noticed that I'm going through a tough time and don't bother to ask if I'm ok, then they don't deserve my 'good friend' advice anyway!!! (btw Hannah- if you are at this point thinking that I'm including you in this then you better remove that thought from your head before I slap it out myself :p you are family and you check on me first so stop thinking it!)
But it's hard for me to think these things about my friends coz it feels like a selfish thing to think 'ask about me. talk about me. care about me!' but I'm not a selfish person...I'm nagging and impatient and boring and alot of other things...but I'm not selfish and normally I wouldn't be thinking that I need my friends to be supporting me but right now I think its ok to insist upon that, right?
And there are some diamonds amongst the rough, Dina and Kate and Teresa and my Hannah are like angels sent to watch over me. A text or phone call just when I need it, a conversation about nothing to distract me, the reassurance that I could call any or all of them at any time of day or night and they would be there for me. Friends like that are invaluable.
This blog was going to be about how I still feel flat but really it turned into a small rant about some people and a tribute to my friends.
My blog in general used to be about me complaining about exams and family and meaningless things...and I'm sure it'll go back to that at some point...but for now, the biggest thing in my life is my grandparents and their ever-declining health, and that means that my blog is overshadowed by that. I'm sorry if it's a bit depressing!
That's all- I'm still happy about results, enjoying workshops at uni and the support of my friends. Life isn't all bad, it's just hard to pull past the sad emotions.
Much love xxx
I'm tired and teary and I don't have the energy to slap on my happy face and pretend to be enjoying myself.
I either need to be around people who distract me with stupid conversations about nothing or people who I can be honest with about how much I'm struggling...and some people don't fit either of those categories and it's not their fault but I don't have the energy to carry the conversations or make an effort sometimes and that unfortunately results in a breakdown of communication.
I do have good moments...honestly I do, it's not just doom and gloom...just now I said something to PJ that wasn't that funny but it had me in giggles for about 5 minutes. And that felt good :) just to be distracted by unrelated stuff- and that doesn't include hearing about other people's problems...it's hard to care about some of my friends mundane problems when I'm feeling this grief, and I feel bad coz any other time I would be right there to give the 'good friend' advice but right now I can't and frankly if they haven't noticed that I'm going through a tough time and don't bother to ask if I'm ok, then they don't deserve my 'good friend' advice anyway!!! (btw Hannah- if you are at this point thinking that I'm including you in this then you better remove that thought from your head before I slap it out myself :p you are family and you check on me first so stop thinking it!)
But it's hard for me to think these things about my friends coz it feels like a selfish thing to think 'ask about me. talk about me. care about me!' but I'm not a selfish person...I'm nagging and impatient and boring and alot of other things...but I'm not selfish and normally I wouldn't be thinking that I need my friends to be supporting me but right now I think its ok to insist upon that, right?
And there are some diamonds amongst the rough, Dina and Kate and Teresa and my Hannah are like angels sent to watch over me. A text or phone call just when I need it, a conversation about nothing to distract me, the reassurance that I could call any or all of them at any time of day or night and they would be there for me. Friends like that are invaluable.
This blog was going to be about how I still feel flat but really it turned into a small rant about some people and a tribute to my friends.
My blog in general used to be about me complaining about exams and family and meaningless things...and I'm sure it'll go back to that at some point...but for now, the biggest thing in my life is my grandparents and their ever-declining health, and that means that my blog is overshadowed by that. I'm sorry if it's a bit depressing!
That's all- I'm still happy about results, enjoying workshops at uni and the support of my friends. Life isn't all bad, it's just hard to pull past the sad emotions.
Much love xxx
RESULTS!!!!!
I got my results and I did well...very well :D
Here's what I thought I'd get:
Human Growth & Development 2- B or C
Social Policy- D or fail (I would've been chuffed with a C but honestly thought I would fail...it wasn't my best work)
Law- B+ or possibly an A
Fit for Practice 2- Ungraded Pass
Here's what I got:
HG&D- B+
Social Policy- B (hahaha I have no idea how!)
Law- A
F4P2- Ungraded Pass
I'm so happy :D :D :D
xxxx
Here's what I thought I'd get:
Human Growth & Development 2- B or C
Social Policy- D or fail (I would've been chuffed with a C but honestly thought I would fail...it wasn't my best work)
Law- B+ or possibly an A
Fit for Practice 2- Ungraded Pass
Here's what I got:
HG&D- B+
Social Policy- B (hahaha I have no idea how!)
Law- A
F4P2- Ungraded Pass
I'm so happy :D :D :D
xxxx
Sunday, 14 June 2009
Feeling flat but not so bad
Today I don't feel as bad as I did yesterday (PJ and I made up but it wasn't even about him, I was so upset and everything came crashing down and I cried alot and ended up sleeping in with Mum!) but I still feel kinda flat. Today was alright, some good bits, some not so good.
Danni's now here coz we have this workshop the next few days, we're watching Harry Potter before getting an early night. Results in the morning too!
That's all to say I think :)
Much love xxx
Danni's now here coz we have this workshop the next few days, we're watching Harry Potter before getting an early night. Results in the morning too!
That's all to say I think :)
Much love xxx
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