hence why when i wanted to go iceskating i offered to take my 7 year old godsister...hehe she enjoyed it, as did beth and i! i love ice-skating! i dont even care that those stupid skates gave me a horrible blister on my foot!
i'm also loving the sunny days :) even if soon it'll be time for school again. i'm starting to make some real headway with my dissertation. got to do a summary of my results, a conclusion/evaluation, a bibliography thing and then i'm done!
i've actually been working really hard on it...i hope it shows in my result, but tbh i'm not sure it will, i havent exactly enjoyed it and dont know how well i'll have done.
it really hit me yesterday that i'm not at spring harvest. i was supposed to go for like the 4th year but it hasnt happened. the family taking me chose not to go in the end and i couldnt find another way to go. i think its affecting luke, nathan and nathan more though since they're there and apparently it feels really empty and weird without us. but since i'm at home and nothing has changed, it wasnt affecting me.
but yesterday i suddenly imagined the boys there, going to group and on the beach and stuff like that and it really hit me that i'm not there. it really sucks..i know thats not very descriptive but its the only way i can express how i'm feeling. i want to be there so badly.
and its looking more and more like i'm gonna be alone at new wine. well i'll have friends there but no-one to really share a tent with. kat and her friends are going but no offence to her, i really dont want to share a tent with her and her friends...i'd just be left out. and i could share with ashleigh and kym but after last year i know they just dont stop talking or moving and i dont want to share a tent with them.
it looks like hannah might not be able to go and she's my last hope. i'd have some people there to hang out with but none of my close girl mates and i'm getting more and more worried about going because i think i'll just end up on my own. i dunno if there's a reason for it or if god will work something out, but i'm praying really hard about it at the moment.
anyway thats my post for today, i ought to go do some dissertation work and get it out the way!
much love xxxxx
3 comments:
you should come to new wine anyway, you'll have loads of fun & get to chat to God.
if worst comes to worst in terms of friends, just go to loads of seminars & spend the week quietly with God.
that'd be awesome!
yeah i'm definitely going to go. part of me wonders if god's going to use new wine to start making the transition from youth member to leader? either way its going to be awesome to spend time with Him.
Big hugs and love, sorry to hear things are a bit pants. x x
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