blah…

I’ve had a bit of a blah day today. some slightly crappy things happening, not enough that they qualify as bad things, just stupid little things that didn’t make me happy…for instance I saw a family friend of ours Beth wearing some gorgeous purple boots and so I went to the shop she got them from today to get some myself…slight problem being that Beth is 11 and has slightly smaller feet than me :( they didn’t go even close to my size! and they didn’t have any boots similar to it in the adults range (kids get all the good clothes and shoes!)

it was a silly thing and didn’t make me unhappy or anything but it added to the feeling of blah about today.

I slept well last night for the first night in a while which is good but I still felt tired.

yesterday we went over to trowbridge for boxing day. the five of us, mum, dad, PJ, Hannah (PJ’s girlfriend) and I, went over and had lunch at my aunt and uncles before going to see my grandparents for a little bit. I mentioned in an earlier blog that they weren’t very well. to add to that my grandma had a fall earlier this week that shook us up a bit.
I’m very aware of how my grandparents are doing, we talk about it all the time as a family. but I haven’t seen them in a while…since July I think…and it broke my heart. my grandma took forever to get up to go to the bathroom and needed my dad’s help, she was talkative but slumped in her chair….and apparently she was having a very good day. it was just a visual of how bad they are doing and as much as we talk about it, seeing it was horrible. as soon as we got in the car to leave I broke down. how my aunt sees them like that every day and cares for them I don’t know…it takes an immense strength that I can’t even imagine. it just made the whole situation very real.

other than that we had a very good day with my aunt and uncle, saw my cousin Ruth and her daughter too :) Ruth is getting married in September and I’m being a bridesmaid so it was exciting to talk about that a bit. Hannah handled the whole family very well, she’s met them all before but this was slightly more focussed attention and she did well- I've expressed very widely that PJ isn’t allowed to let Hannah go! she’s so lovely and I consider her a great friend and I want her around forever! hehe PJ and Hannah don’t get a choice in the matter.

anyway I think that’s all for tonight. I should go get some more sleep. not got alot on over the next few days but on wednesday it’s the annual new year’s eve murder mystery…I’m the dead guy’s widow so should be interesting!

prayers for the whole family would be good :)
Much love xxx