highs and lows

Mum has written a new blog where she talks about her highs and lows of 2008 and it has inspired me to do the same. alot of them will be very similar but some will be different:

lows of 2008: Grandma & Grandpa being so ill. the whole uncertainty about my blood tests. PJ’s brief but very scary illness. dealing with certain new people in our previously calm circle. my gap year. the whole halls stuff.

I think the halls thing was the lowest. Mostly because I couldn’t see a way out, I was so low and that terrified me. I can deal with illness and stuff, I mean its bad but I can cope, I’m good at coping with that kind of thing. but not the halls stuff. I crashed and it was bad. it doesn’t help that some of that fear is still there :(

 

highs of 2008: keeping the same good friends and making new ones. New Wine. Spring Harvest. my gap year (I realise I put that in my lows but the whole year was a rollercoaster!). PJ and Hannah still going strong- I don’t think they realise how much of an inspiration they are to me to keep looking for love. Speaking of inspirations- my parents- getting to be such good friends with my mum and being so close to both of them, this year I realised how lucky I am to have that. my birthday. christmas. University.

the biggest high has to be university. I love it. it just works. I have good friends, I love my course, every day at uni shows me how right this course is for me. and God knew it all along. that’s why he placed me at Brookes. because the halls thing was coming and he made sure than none of it would affect my course…he’s pretty smart!

 

looking at that, actually my biggest high is God. my relationship with him has grown enormously in the last year. my gap year in particular was huge…being so immersed in the church world day in and day out made me really evaluate my friendship with Him and drew me closer. and even through the halls stuff, although I was terrified, I knew he was with me…and as much as I hated it and never want to go back to that place- God never gave me more than I could handle. I love Him more and more each day. I feel Him working in me. and it feels amazing! alright, so I still don’t read my bible enough and I should definitely pray more…but he’s the first one I turn to and that’s something immense.

 

wow this blog is longer than intended! I meant to do a quick blog and then go to bed coz I slept really badly last night so need get some rest. but I’m glad I wrote all that down.

that’s all for now :)
Much love xxx