I can’t remember what I wrote in my last blog but this weekend I went to BASC- Friday afternoon before I left I got super panicky, Mum and PJ had to calm me down before I could go. It was more about being in control and I just had to take each bit at a time. So on Friday night I just focussed on getting through the night, then on Saturday morning I just tried to get to the afternoon…once I got to Saturday evening I was fine coz I knew I was leaving the next day so I finally relaxed and actually really enjoyed myself.
Overall it was a good weekend, some wobbly moments which weren’t so good but from Saturday afternoon onwards I had a really good time, I got much closer to Teresa and Claire who were both incredibly supportive, I made some really good new friends and laughed alot :D so it was good to do. It didn’t magically fix everything but it’s a stepping stone.
In other news, it’s results day tomorrow :s 9am tomorrow my results go up on my personal Brookes page and I can log-on and get them…I’m nervous now. For the last couple of weeks I’ve been saying ‘oh and I just want them now!’ and whilst that’s true, I’m also very nervous. These are my first results and they’re going to be the benchmark for the next 3 years…I think I worked hard but I have no idea what kind of grade that equals on a uni course! I was pretty confident I passed them all…right up until tonight when I suddenly thought about the possibility of failing…I’ve been confident before, I’ve thought that I worked hard and still failed, it happened in A-levels and it could happen now. I just haven’t got a clue!
Anyway I’m going to bed now, will hopefully sleep well tonight, I don’t want the nervousness to disturb my sleep! will post tomorrow with results!
Much love xxx
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