So I'm away at Retreat to Advance at the moment and really enjoying having some space and time away with God and friends.
Last night the speaker talked about 2012 being an amazing year for Britain...and then there was a prayer call later for people who had heard him say that and thought that actually 2012 hadn't been a good year.
I didn't go forward for prayer but I thought about it...overall I don't view last year as awful but it did contain some of the worst times of my life.
Over the summer I had a time where my ministry was questioned and changed, it was a very tricky time and I struggled. I've had times of overcoming the past hurts and trying to heal. I had my car accident which is still sending ripple effects through my life. And I lost my beautiful godsister, I know she's dancing with God now but the sadness was, and is, massive.
I really pray that 2013 is a better year, but actually through this past year my relationship with God has grown, my ability to trust in Him, and hand over control, has grown.
I've resolved some questions about my future and healed a lot of wounds from my past.
Would I have chosen to have the bad experiences? Absolutely not. But am I thankful for the blessings that God has brought out of it all? Definitely.
So as I look forward to 2013 I pray for several things: that I could achieve my personal goals (financially, health and diet, career etc), that I might find love, that my confidence in my abilities and gifts would grow whilst remaining humble...and that I would trust God and see the rainbow beyond the rain.
"we are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair; persecuted but not abandoned; struck down but not destroyed." 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
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