meltdown

i started a post earlier where i was ranting about parentals but didnt finish it. mostly coz it wasnt their fault i was stressed out...i mean they contributed to it but didnt really do anything that wrong.

mostly i was very tired and getting stressed about what a long week this week is going to be since any spare time is going to be spent rehearsing for my drama exam on thursday.
i ended up crying ALOT to my mummy, you're never too old to cry to your mummy, she hugged me and talked to me and helped calm me down. i didnt go to cells tonight because i was just stressing myself out more by worrying about what would happen if i did or didnt go. so i made a decision and i stuck to it.

i then spent the evening watching a cheesy feel good chick flick movie and just chilled out. its now 9.45 and i'm going to bed because i just need sleep and if i dont make the decision to go to bed at a resonable hour then i just wont sleep enough and will get more stressed out.

i hope cells went alright peter, let me know if anything came up. i have tuesday morning off so i'm going to hand out W's then and get it sorted if i can.

to be honest i think i let the little things build up, i have a nice life and an amazing family but its the little tiny problems that get to me. things like my parents not being free to celebrate finishing my exam on thursday or my brother not coming to see my play or feeling like i have to be at cells. thankfully all these things have been solved; my mum and i are going to get takeaway after my exam, my brother is coming to see the play once he realised how important it was to me and seeing how andy accepted me saying that i couldnt be at cells has helped me feel less pressured.

so i'm going to bed now :)
much love xxxxxx