one week!

I've just realised it's 00:30am and technically friday which means one week until I go to America :D :D :D
I'm very excited! it's going to be soooo good!

Although today I was comtemplating the scenario in which my grandpa could die right before we go...or whilst we're there...and although I wouldn't cancel the trip or anything (he wouldn't want me to) it's a little daunting to think about not being together as a family through this.

But I'm trying not to think about it too much...looking back at the first part of this blog- it's a perfect example of my life at the moment...I'm enjoying myself and am happy and every now and then I'll dip back into the sadness and grief, just for a moment, and then I'm back out again...it's hard to describe...

Today I saw Dina & Adam which was alot of fun! I forgot how much fun I have with them :) and tonight was PJ's Hannah's ball and PJ was going with her...I did her hair, which looked beautiful if I say so myself, and then Mum and I took them and I picked them up. Talking about leavers balls with Hannah was weird...it feels like yesterday that I was at mine, and yet like a lifetime ago...it's been 2 years in reality and that is a pretty long time actually...and I'm much happier now than I was then...don't get me wrong, I enjoyed 6th form but I'm finally on a course where I love every moment of it, I have amazing friends, my hard work is reflected in my grades and it feels right :)
So as much fun as it was to reminisce with Hannah...I wouldn't go back for the world :)

That's all I have to say tonight, tomorrow...wait...today we're going to Southampton for a uni open day for PJ which will hopefully go a bit smoother than the last one!
Much love xxx