its the end of my first day at university. now I don't have internet until tuesday so this will be a delayed post but I needed somewhere to let my feelings out about it all.
it went well. I moved all my stuff in yesterday but stayed at home last night before bringing the last few things over and moving in properly. my flatmates are all lovely.
Annie- I'd already met her on facebook and we get on great, same taste in films and I really like her :)
Steph- the rest of our flatmates ended up at the icebreaker disco before Steph and I tonight and it was packed with a line outside so the two of us ended up taking the bus to Harcourt Hill SU bar with Luce coz it was pretty empty. I really enjoyed it coz it meant Steph and I got a chance to chat just the two of us. She's really nice and so funny :)
Meagan- no idea if I've spelt her name right but she's lovely too. from south africa and has such a bubbly personality.
Callum- the most random person ever! really funny and nice but switches topics so quickly and says the most random things.
Adam- really nice guy, smoker but we'll forgive him hehe, genuinely lovely guy.
none of them are horrible, they're all nice. I'm not sure I'll end up good friends with all of them but on first appearances I think they'll be nice people to live with.
wow. talking about living with people makes it kick in how long term this is. tonight I got hit by a bit of a homesick wave whilst I was out. I called home briefly earlier but I wasn't feeling too bad then. it comes in waves really. right now I'm feeling another one coming, the tears are welling a little bit. I'm excited to be here and have so much stuff to do this week but I miss home. I miss my family already and just having friends that I know around. it helps having Lucy nearby coz I can lean on her a bit.
I'm resisting the urge to call home. aside from the fact that its 12.50 and too late to be calling really, I know that I just need to ride the wave out and it'll be fine. I have so much going on this week and once I get into a routine with lectures and start making good friends I'll be fine. it's just really weird. I miss the normal sounds of my family around the house and I miss having PJ to tease and I miss it all really.
I am fine really. Not giving up or anything. Just allowing myself to feel these things.
Tomorrow Steph, Annie and I are going to head into Oxford to look around and buy a toaster! should be a good chance to get to know them better. I'm already comfortable knocking on Annie's door in search for company but not for a hug just yet. which is sort of what I need right now. I guess my cuddly toys will have to do!
right, I'm going to go before I make myself cry any more! for those who read this back and worry about me (that means you Mum) I really am fine, I promise. just having the first lull of university life and the feelings are sinking in.
I'm sure I'll write another blog tomorrow.
much love xxx
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