second night of university (monday)

so I actually slept really well last night, once I'd cried and called Anna so she could calm me, I was fine once I rode the homesickness wave out.

today was pretty good too. Steph and I ended up going into oxford, having a moo-moo's, buying a toaster and just relaxing. it was fun :)

tonight was the booze crawl. which started really early at 5.30pm. it wasn't very good to be honest. the bars and pubs we stopped at were good but most of the reps (not all of them) were 2nd year guys just looking for freshers to sleep with. and we ended up walking from cowley to the city centre which is a good 2 miles I think...and I hate walking. right now I can't really feel my feet!
we ended up at Bar Risa at 10ish which was nice but by that point I'd drank more than I normally do, been ignored by guys trying to hit on my more attractive friends (not all the guys were this shallow, we met a couple of nicer guys) and was ready to leave. I stayed for the foam party bit but by 11pm I was calling for a taxi. I could have walked through Oxford to get my bus but I'm not stupid. Dina, the girl from my course who's also in my halls, wanted to stay but didn't want me to go on my own so paid for my taxi.

I had a couple of really fun moment tonight but mostly I just realised how much that is not my scene. and I don't know why I felt like I had to try and fit in with that scene. I know uni life is supposed to be all drinking and clubs but to be honest, I really can't wait to go to the christian union on wednesday night, find some proper friends and start being me again.

I can feel a wave of homesickness coming on again, due to combination of tiredness, alcohol and thinking about it too much.

going to go watch a dvd. much love xxx