I have read my blog back and realised quite how down I sounded...which I was...but I'm ok now. Grandma is ok and that helps alot. Plus I had some amazing friends give support via calls and texts, and Mum, PJ and I are all supporting each other. So the day ended up being alright in the end.
I finished the study (with help from alot of people) and I'm happy with it. And Mum & I went swimming this evening. Plus I even went to tesco's and did a bit of a food shop tonight.
Tomorrow we're going over to visit Grandpa & Grandma...without being overally morbid, this is a sort of chance to possible say our last goodbyes to Grandpa since we can't guarantee we'll see him again before he dies so it's going to be difficult. But we're seeing Val, Ivor & Ruth too (aunt, uncle and cousin) which will be good and we can all support each other.
It does seem like a never-ending rollercoaster and although the 'highs' aren't really highs, I feel as though we've come back up for breath before we head down a dip again tomorrow. And that's a good thing because I'm not sure how I would've been able to put on a brave face and smile at Grandma & Grandpa tomorrow if I still felt like I did this morning.
One silver lining to all this stuff...I've barely thought about results day on Monday! It's coming quickly and I just haven't thought about it that much. Ah well, we'll see what I get, it can't be too bad in comparison to the rest of the stuff.
I'm going to bed to get some good sleep in before tomorrow.
Much love xxx
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