no escape

I have just blogged about the whole MJ thing...but I thought I should also blog about my day...
We (Mum, PJ and I) travelled to Loughborough for a uni open day for PJ...I decided to go because I've done this before and I wanted to give advice and pass on my worldly knowledge...I don't know alot but I do know about applying to uni.
Started out ok, until we tried to walk somewhere and PJ took the map and said he knew where he was going and didn't listen to me...
Simply he was being a man and wanting to map read...
I managed to blow this up into 'he doesn't accept my advice because he doesn't think I know what I'm talking about but I do know what I'm talking about I don't know alot about science or geography but I know about uni and he doesn't care!!'
Mum then told me that I was blowing it out of proportion...well duh! but telling me that doesn't help me calm down! it just upsets me more! and even if I am blowing it out of proportion, I'm still feeling every emotion :(
Anyway I was grumpy and quiet for a while and then we all stopped and talked about it...and Mum made the point that everything with Grandma & Grandpa is always there...

And she's right...it was the stupidest thing to get upset over, but my emotions are all over the place because of the anticipatory grief and something as small as a spat with PJ means I get really upset. I'm just close to tears so often and anything can set it off...I hate it :( I love my grandparents so much but I really hope this is all over soon...for them as much as for us...

Anyway after I sorted myself out, we had a good day :) PJ did want my advice...not overally so, this is his experience and I don't want to take that away, but he does want my advice...so that's good :) I will watch myself and try not to take over but will be here to answer questions if he wants.
So it was a good day, nice uni, I wore flip-flops which rubbed my feet alot coz we were late for a talk and walking fast, so I changed into my other shoes (I came prepared) which just decided to rub the other parts of my feet :( worst blisters I've had in a while! Had a foot-spa when I got home which has helped.
Tomorrow I'm helping out at the foodbank run by church, and finishing the study (I still need to paint words on the wall...yep I haven't done it yet but as long as it's done before Dad gets back that's fine!) and then in the evening Mum, PJ, his Hannah and I are going to the cinema to see My Sister's Keeper...should be a good day :)

Right, I'm off to bed, BBC have confirmed MJ is dead, time to sleep now!
Much love xxx