kiss the girl

sha-la-la-la-la-la go on and kiss the girl...
hehe i'm listening to disney :)

am back to work, its very busy since we now have lots to do for the weekend away too.
and to make things even better i have a sore throat/cold thing :(
its that awful kind that makes you feel slightly rubbish but not rubbish enough to retreat to your bed instead of going to work.

on the plus side i have my new phone :) its very exciting and thin and cool and new!
cells on sunday was good, my cell joined with PJ's cell coz we both only had 3 or 4 people and so we wrote letters to Anna for the welcome and then had a good discussion about money and life etc.

this saturday i am going to see chicago with Kat which should be good, it's for her 16th birthday and we have amaaazing seats (thats amaaazing not amazing) and are both excited about it :D

i have alot of stuff to do for work but looks like i'll have some time this afternoon and tomorrow afternoon to do them so that's good.
and the next 4 weeks are going to fly by and then its christmas :D :D :D

my prayer request is that this cold doesnt get worse and i can keep up my energy for the next several crazy weeks!
much love xxx

half-term- half over...

its thursday which is about half way through half term...i wish half term was longer!
at least christmas is going to be soon and the next 6 weeks will fly by.
went material shopping today with my nan, she's making loads of costumes for our traditional new year's eve murder mystery- it's medieval themed, i am a peasant girl...however i'm determined to have best outfit again!

now that should be confused with the murder mystery PJ and i are hosting tomorrow night. that one is for friends of ours and is las vegas themed. should be a good night :)

i'm also going food shopping tomorrow for my parents and i'm away at southampton solent open day on saturday and then it's the light party and usual church stuff on sunday so i figured i should post a new blog today coz before i know it monday will be here.

before we go to southampton on saturday i will be getting my new phone :) don't worry it's the same number, just nice new upgrade phone!

next week i'm back at work and then on saturday Kat and i are seeing Chicago in London for her birthday :D we've got amazing seats and i'm very excited.
i should also have heard back from Miss T (my old teacher) about my personal statement and how much i need to do to it. but i should be sending off my uni application in the next couple of weeks. i'm excited about that too, i can't wait to go to uni :) right now i feel like i'm stuck in a sort of limbo where my older friends have moved away and my younger friends are part of the youth group i help at so its difficult to have the same sort of friendship with them.
i'm enjoying this year, at least for the most part, but at the same time i can't wait for the year to be over so i can get onto the next exciting step of my life.

i've been learning to lean on God alot recently. because although sometimes i get frustrated and question why i am here, i am also talking to Him about it which is a good thing. I know he has plans for my life and part of those plans is to be here this year.
He's also given me a verse to claim as my own. I felt him say it to me at new wine and then at holiday club and then two seperate people mentioned the verse to me and i had a sense that it was from Him. That verse is Psalm 46:10 'Be still and know that I am God'
i need to learn to not panic when things are chaotic or feel out of my control and to just take a breath and be still.

those are my bits of news and reflections for today :)
much love xxx

ah well...

we lost :( 15-6 i think the final score was.
but we played well, came very close at one point but in the end south africa won.
i'm still very proud of our team and even though my boy couldnt play he was there to support them and i was proud of him :)

now i plan to watch some crime tv shows and then go to bed before church tomorrow morning. matt, kathryn and issac (my godfather and his family) are coming for lunch tomorrow too so that should be good fun.
then i intend to enjoy my week off!

i'm feeling less shaken up after today's drama, please keep praying though
much love xxxx

half term, prayers and more rugby

firstly please pray for my friend and myself as we were involved in a collision today. my friend was driving and a young girl stepped into the back of my friend's car as we were driving in a multi-story carpark.
i dont want to explain more than that. it wasnt my friend's fault and the girl is fine, but we have had to report it and its shaken us both up, especially her.
so please pray that it goes no further than today and that the shock will wear off.

in better news, it's half term!
i even get most of the week off. i'm considering going to see friends at uni and also i might be getting a new phone :)
but mostly i plan to sleep ALOT!

the rugby cup final is tonight and we're in it! England v South Africa.
i have no idea if we're going to win. i would have said South Africa are bound to beat us but then Argentina beat France last night so there are already pigs flying in the sky!
my boy isn't playing tonight but i will be cheering them all on anyway. it should be an awesome game :)

that's all for now. sorry my posts aren't as often as last year. i'm starting to see why peter didnt blog more. however my aim is to at least blog once a week!
much love xxxxxxxxxxxx

the weekend- sleeping, university and rugby

i am writing this during half time of the rugby world cup. unfortunately my boy has just gone off injured but he scored a try 82 seconds in so i am very proud hehe!
we've played well so far, it was always going to be a close game so we'll see what happens.

my weekend so far has been good, i slept alot on friday which was awesome :D i also went material shopping for new year's eve murder mystery costumes. my character is a poor peasant woman...so i'm going to dress like a wench...hehe a poor yet sexy wench!

today my parents and i went to visit UWE, my beloved first choice university! they both liked it which is good and i'm still in love with it! i'm waiting for feedback about they first draft of my personal statement but soon i'll be waiting for offers! it's very exciting!

tomorrow i've got lazers (11-14's at LF) in the morning, then lunch at Ron and Ruth's house, visiting Kate in the afternoon coz she's back from uni again. and then it's space celebration in the evening which should be good too.
one more week before half term when i'll have some time off which'll be fab :)

slightly exciting/impressive news this week is that i'm having a work lunch with the Bishop of Oxford this week! hehe sounds way more impressive than it is!
ooh and some good tv on this week too! i'm hoping the week flies by so i can sleep in more next week.
anyway the rugby is back on so must go watch the lovely rugby men running around....it's a hard life *sigh*

much love xxx

a brief break

i'm starting to understand why peter hardly blogged last year! but i'm determined to keep up my pace and still blog when i can.

pj and i have made up, love of junk food bought us back together!

i worked most of my day off on friday to prepare for the desire event but it was worth it, ended up being a good evening. i spent most of it chatting to mike, josh, jonnie, stevie and tiff. which was really nice :)

the fair is in town :D i'm incredibly excited about this! it comes once a year and is the longest street fair in europe!
that means tonight after genesis cell groups i am going to meet up with nicola, tip and gareth and go to the fair! lots of fun rides, candy-floss, just a good laugh.

i'm also progressing with my personal statement and am going to visit my beloved UWE on saturday with my parents which should be good.

still working hard although trying to manage my time better, god's really been making his point about me resting more.
i cant wait for half term to come and i can go see friends at uni and also sleep in and just generally have some time off.

anyway i'd better go, small bit of work to do before taking some time with god this afternoon.
much love xxxxx

and take a deep breath

i know, i sounded like a brat yesterday, thanks to amazing friends and lovely parents i have calmed down. still havent spoken to my brother but thats ok.

very busy day today. i've written my personal statement (first draft), been to a new wine leaders network meeting thing, prepared sunday school group for sunday, cut out a load of paper leafs and hearts, started to write a drama and i'm about to paint a tree...

working for the church means that you do some weird things :)

better go and get on with it!
much love xxxxx

i hate my brother

he thinks that just coz he does school 6 days a week and rugby too that he must work harder than i do.
its not true.
i work just as hard.
he wanted the tv to play xbox on, i asked if i could wait until the break and also warned him that i'd be back in the playroom when tea was ready.
he accepted this.

the break comes and i say i'll be back in 20 mins since i was going to make tea when my program was finished. and he got all mad 'you have freeview in your room for a reason'
yeah i do have freeview, i'm very lucky in that way. but i dont want to eat tea in my room. and i did warn him.
and i have given up the tv loads this last week.
he could just move his xbox up to his room and play it there.

i'm just so sick of having this same fight with him over and over again.
i'm over it. i didnt choose to live with him. i'm just really mad at him.
and i dont even care that i sound like a brat. i'm tired and worked hard today and he's made everything 10 times worse.
i know there are way worse problems in the world but that doesnt make me any less upset or mad at him.


its very probable that none of this will make sense and that you wont care about it. i dont mind if you roll your eyes at how pathetic the problem is and then just move on. i just needed to let it out. crying only gets me so far.

x