drastic times call for drastic measures

Recently I have been busy...tired, and busy...
It's been a gradual change so I almost haven't noticed it but for the last few months I've been out almost every night a week, busy every weekend and going to bed later and later.
And it's starting to take its toll on me.

A few of my nearest and dearest have pointed out that I'm too busy, my boss has commented on my low energy levels (not in a negative way, but more out of concern), and many areas of my life have taken the hit because of it.

So I've come up with a plan...a two month plan. Two months seems like a good time, starting from 1st April, because its a good length of time and because that'll take me until the next half term holiday. I'm pretty much going to shut myself off from the world for 2 months and take some time to recharge.

My plan includes:
- virtually no socialising, a maximum of one outing a week...house group, church, anything that improves my relationship with God is fine though. This will hopefully mean that I rest rather than go out, that I save money and eat better, and that I continue to recover. There are some social things I can't/won't avoid...weddings, time with family friends...but definitely no more than one a week.

- attempt to make #bedby10pm. This will be difficult because I struggle to sleep that early but next term I'll be working from 8am which is earlier than now, so I need more sleep and it'll help with my general energy levels

It also includes a few things about exercise and money saving...it'll all help me refocus and get things back on track.

So basically I apologise to all my friends who I'm probably not going to see for a few months, I ask that you support me and keep me accountable :) hopefully it'll help me adjust and improve life for me and those around me!

Timings

I've been thinking a lot recently about timing...about the difference between my timing and God's timing.

One of my favourite verses is '..."For i know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future"...' Jeremiah 29:11

I hardly ever doubt that God has a plan for me...I might not always see the plan happening, I might question whether or not I like it...but I do trust that it exists.
God's timing of the plan is something I constantly question...

I worry about my career and if I'm in the right job at the right time or if I should be doing something else, and getting mad when God doesn't provide me with a neon light.
I am forever yelling at God asking why he hasn't brought my husband to me yet...and why I have to wait for children.
And then when he does give me a neon light (or a very clear promise) I ask why he isn't giving it to me now and what I'm meant to do with the neon sign.

But actually God is never late. He hasn't misjudged the timing of anything. He knows exactly the moment that I'm meant to fall in love, and the age at which I'll have children...He knows what job I'll be in at all those points. And I will probably only ever get to see it in hindsight.

God has great timing. If something isn't meant to happen now, then that's because it isn't the right time. Not that it'll never happen, or that I should try and force it to happen now.
God has led me this far and I'm the happiest I've ever been, so i really don't know why I question it!

I'm aware this is a massively vague post, I have a few specific situations in mind but my thoughts are 'oh so this could be God's plan all along but I have to wait and see...' and then on the other hand it could not be God's plan at all! So there's no point writing about specifics or even wasting energy wondering about them. Instead I need to focus on God and let him guide me through the plan :)

In other news:
In the last month I've been to London, Paris and Cambridge. I've decided to focus on teaching and early years stuff as a job. I've seen more of my friends. I've started having physio, doing Pilates and trying to jog!

I'm happy and God is good :)