i so hate consequences

i'm eating ice cream that i know probably isnt great for me but i couldnt care less. its triple chocolate ice cream!!!

i love having the freedom of being able to drive to waitrose coz i really fancy some ice cream. i even dragged my brother along too!

am feeling better today. was ill yesterday but am better today, still tired but whats new! got a meeting at andy and emma's in 30 mins, we're meeting with the models for the lift the label fashion show. should be good :)

anywho, i'm off to enjoy my ice cream and listen to some good old-fashioned reliant k! (notice i'm keeping up the title theme!)

much love xxxxxxxxxxxx

breakdown

well that was a lovely evening (feel the sarcasm dripping from that statement)

i thought my cell went ok tonight, we were a bit giggly and chatty but we managed to get through it all and have a good discussion in the word part.
i also had a really good chat with one of my cell members at the end, got quite deep but thats always good.

i originally wrote and posted a long rant about my talk with andy and emma (i'm not in a good mood about it) but to be completely honest i'm worried someone might report back to them about it. which is a shame coz i kinda wanted this blog to be open but i can't talk completely openly about this subject.

so i'm off to bed.
night xxxx

maybe its maybelline

when girls get together with alot of junk food and some very silly games its bound to be a night of fun :)

especially if a camera is there too!

we had ALOT of food...it helps that megan and anna work at bakers oven!

altogether there was me, anna, megan, natalie, leanne and cassie.

we ate food, watched movies, played stupid games, took weird pictures:

anyway i gotta go, pancake day at beth's house! wooooooooo!

more pictures and food :D

much love xxxxxxxxxxxxx

the complex infrastructure known as the female mind...

ok so wednesday completely tired me out. i'm still aching from the physical theatre workshop! but it was really good :)
then the play in warwick was amaaaaaaaaaaaazing!!!! so so so so so good!!! and the trip there and back was funny, i went with my friend cassie and our teacher laura who's 25 and very funny and lovely hehe.

anyway tiredness lead to me having a minor breakdown last night after my darling brother went to bed without tidying any of our 'shared' playroom which meant i had to do it all and i was so tired that it made me cry out of anger and frustration (its ok now, he's apologised and is gonna wash my car to pay me back yay!)

today is a better day, despite raining this morning. i performed in the larkmead whole school assembly, my knees were shaking, i hate it when i can see the audience. however it went well :)
in psychology we started to make the boxes for our dolls (its all about gender development so it has to be aimed at boys and girls).

i'm still tired today but its a good day. the weekend is here and i am about to go pick up kate and go shopping!!! retail therapy is always good!!!

much love xxxxxxxxxx

p.s. on a god note, i have found solidarity in two of my friends who are amazing and are supporting me. i'm starting to trust god more with my prayers and i want to change my attitude which is the first step towards actually doing it. thankyou for praying for me :)

thankyou

...to those who prayed. i slept a bit better last night. still not great, but better.
please continue to pray, i've got a long day tomorrow consisting of drama workshop, drama rehearsals and then going to warwick to watch a theatre performance in the evening. so basically alot of theatre/drama stuff!!

i thank Him too for helping me sleep. i prayed to Him and it helped. i guess i lost faith in prayer recently, i only pray when i need something and even then i think i lost faith that my prayer would be answered.
i guess i need to remember that all prayers are answered, just sometimes the answer is no. i've stopped praying the way i was taught at sunday school too, no 'Dear God' or 'Amen'. just an open, uncensored chat with Him. i think its better that way though. its more real....more me.

anyway before i go to bed, just wanted to share my excitement coz i'm involved in organizing a fairtrade 'lift the label' fashion show in about a month, and we managed to confirm all the models tonight and things are really starting to get going! lots of work still to do, choreography and rehearsals and planning, but its all very exciting :)

that's all for today folks, you may get a post tomorrow but since i may not get back until midnight from this play, its iffy! probably post again on thursday xxx

sleep.....

i haven't slept well the last 5-ish nights. especially the last two nights when i needed it most.
now i'm back at school and i'm drained and tired and not concentrating.
it sucks and i'm praying that tonight i sleep well coz i don't have to get up until 9.30 tomorrow which is fab!
those who believe, please pray i sleep. i have had problems with sleep in the past, dunno what it is but every now and then i'll get a patch where for a couple of weeks i can't sleep. this time is the worst of the lot. could be stress, if it continues i don't know what to do. i'm feeling so drained. i don't want it to affect my school work. especially with exams coming up.

that having all been said, i am off to bed! night xxxx

once a wasp always a wasp

and it was a fantastic match!
london wasps vs sale sharks
we were down 13-10 at half time i think, then in the second half we brought it back to a final score of 26-18
woohoo!!!
and i'm soooo tired! i havent been sleeping well so last night i took a nytol (sleeping tablet thing) which usually knock me out for a good 10-12 hours. i slept about 7 :(

back to school tomorrow. i've got some good theatre trips on this term, and of course my english dissertation final draft to come. oh and then there's my theatre studies final practical exam at the end of the term!!

however i am very excited as it looks like i may be going to america after exams!!! it may mean i miss one or both of the larkmead/jms balls. but i'll be back for leavers day and its america for goodness sakes!!!!

now i am off to crash out on the sofa and watch some tv hehe night xxxxxxx

p.s. while i remember, can you go check out this band www.myspace.com/elliotminor
they're called Elliot Minor, they are amazing, supported mcfly one night on their tour, just got a record contract, and their video is currently being played on the box and kerrang. and i know these guys, they are lovely, i'm one of about 250 people on their street team and they phoned me from L.A. to say thanks and see how i am!
single is called parallel worlds and its out april 2nd, just go check out the song for me please, if you like it great, if not don't worry!

i'm shattered..

since i did a long drive yesterday, and walked around a theme park, and socialized today. i am extremely tired!
hence why i'm about to go to bed!
i have to drive my brother places tomorrow, and then watch alot of tv. hehe sounds not such a bad day, and i get to lie-in!


watched aladdin at my friend's house this evening (yes, thats right, aladdin!)
and watching as jasmine and aladdin fell in love so quickly i was very cynical, my friend clare said to me 'well it was love at first sight'.

ignoring the fact that she has a boyfriend of a year and 2 months and is living in loveland at the moment, she had a fair point.
i've never really believed in love at first sight, i think you can have a spark at first sight, but love is something built over time with trust and friendship. these two characters (yes the two in a disney film) didn't think twice about putting their trust in each other and falling in love.

its a kids film and thats what kids are being taught, its what we all were taught. what i want to know is, when do we stop believing in love at first sight and start becoming cynical about love.
and is it cynical or is it realistic? maybe after being hurt or watching other people hurt by love we just stop putting our trust in it and build a barrier around ourselves.

and i'll leave you with my quote for the day 'love is giving someone the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to'

much love xxxxxx

best valentine's day yet!

hehe and i don't even have a boyfriend :)

i drove myself and 4 of my other single girlfriends to thorpe park for the day!
it was amazing!!!! not busy so we got to go on the rides 2-4 times each! the water rides werent open but we ate junk food, were adrenaline junkies and had the most fun time ever!

i'm completely shattered now coz i drove there and back, first long-ish journey, and the rides tired me out anyway. but it was soooooo worth it!!

anyway i hope everyone else had a fabulous valentine's day!
much love xxxxxxxxx

p.s. my brother got me a red rose too :) how sweet hehe, made me feel slightly pathetic that it came from my brother but was still sweet!

i'm still shaking

tonight kate and i went to dinner in oxford. i drove to kate's, then to oxford and back to kate's perfectly. on the way back to abingdon from wantage. some idiot overtook the person behind me and then came up right behind me and was weaving all over the road. then he overtook me, beeped his horn lots and swerved so close to my car that i was almost off the road. then he zoomed off.

i was so shaken up i had to find a place to stop because i was so close to tears. i called home and explained to my dad. my mum then called me back to talk to me and try and calm me down whilst my dad drove and found me. i managed to drive home with him following me.

it just scared me, some idiots shouldnt be allowed on the roads. i dunno what caused the swerving but it was so horrible. my hands were shaking.
i started to txt kate while i was waiting for my dad and then he arrived but i hit the wrong button and she got sent half a txt explaining what had happened, i think i scared her a bit. but its ok, i've had alot of hugs from my family, a cyber txt hug from kate. and now i'm letting it out by posting a blog.

i'm now gonna go to bed and hopefully i'll sleep alright xxxx

ok hands up who's very stupid...

*sarah puts her hand up*

i created my blogspot and then when i tried to log in again to post again it wouldnt let me :( and i couldnt remember my username/password/email address. i mean obviously i had an idea what each was but none of the possible options worked. i tried every which way possible, every combination, and it still didnt work!

i'm sure the techies out there will have a simple solution for it however i am but a simple girl who's computer knowledge is higher than the average but not up to techie standard.

therefore i have simply created a new blogspot since its not like i had many posts yet! i've copied my old post about snow day (i can still view my old blogspot, just not access it, grrrr!).

by now you will have realised this post is still on my blogspot. that would be because somehow i've managed to get back in and created the new blog on the same profile as my old blog which then gave me access to my old blog. if you followed that then well done because i've got a headache already!
i'm gonna go delete the new blog and change the background of this one lol.

today was good, we had all age worship at church which godzone was leading (if you dont know what godzone is, you are poor and deprived people hehe, its the kids church my whole family helps at, its amazingly wicked!)

then my dad took me driving on the motorway since me and four friends are celebrating valentine's day by making a fantabulous singleton's trip to thorpe park on wednesday! and since i've never been on a motorway, i felt i should probably do a small trial run hehe!

tomorrow i'm gonna start to learn my lines for my theatre practical and then having dinner with kate in the evening :)much love xxxx

SNOW DAY!!!!!!!!!

and my prayers were answered!!!!! snow day today!!!!!
i started off extremely disappointed because despite the snow, larkmead was still open and i was supposed to walk there for a 3 hour workshop.
then got slightly happier since workshop was cancelled.
then found out john mason was closed so kat was coming round!
and then just as i realised i had to go to larkmead in the afternoon for lessons i got a txt telling me that larkmead shut half way through the day! (peer pressure from other schools methinks!)

so today me, kat, beth and david made a huge snow-women out the front of our house (its been demolished now by some stupid kids), then out in the back garden we made a snow-couple who are still sat at my garden table!
and finally we worked and worked and made a fantabulous igloo!! (will post pictures somewhere soon!)

i love snow!!! soooooooooo much!!!!
feel bad coz pj had school and he should be home by now but i fear he might have actually gone rowing in this weather! crazy boy!

i am now going to go and pray that there's another snow day tomorrow, it'll end the term nicely i feel :)

much love xxxxx

ooooh guess who got a blogspot?!

hello and welcome to my very first post in my very new blogspot!
in the past i've used bebo and myspace and even for one dark period msn live space. and myspace worked well but it was more for talking to friends and pics than anyone really reading my blog.
and i love using a blog to vent and since people i know have blogs on here (and these people are amazing enough to actually read, comment and care what i write) i think its worth it!

anyway i'm off to see little miss kat challis in a play tonight which should be wicked. supposed to have a drama workshop tomorrow which is gonna be fab but at the same time it might snow heavily tomorrow and school might be shut...hmm i dunno which option i want more, amazing drama workshop or no school and snow day?

BRING ON THE SNOW!!!!!!!! ***********************************

much love
sarah xxxxxx