it is my birthday tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!
8 hours and 44 minutes!
and i will become an adult!
well actually technically i was born at 8pm or something but since my driving license doesnt dictate a time, i can go out! and buy alcohol legally and vote lol although who knows who i'd vote for!
i'm extremely excited :D especially since i'm like the last one to turn 18 in my group of friends.
i'll be getting up early to open pressies before pj goes to school and mum goes to work (my dad is working at home i think). then i'll be stopping in at my nan and grandad's before going to the hairdressers to be pampered for a couple of hours.
then i'm back to chill out before getting ready to go out for my birthday meal. about 15 of us girls (and gareth obviously) are going to frankie and benny's for dinner and cocktails :)
and then on friday it's the dinner and dance. i'm excited about that too! although i still have quite a bit to do before then :s
as for today, i am chilling out at home, doing some dinner and dance stuff and generally just enjoying my last week of freedom before i start my gap year.
speaking of which, i'm going to a meeting of the LF kids leaders tonight which will be good, means i get to meet everyone and see whats happening!
i know i'll get asked what it's like to be 18 and most people say it's no difference but to me it will be. especially because i'm the last one and it'll mean i can finally go to the pub and things with my friends and just not have to worry about 'being old enough'.
i don't know whether that makes sense but i know tomorrow will be good.
i'm one of these people who absolutly loves birthdays. i love getting gifts for other people on their birthdays and going out and celebrating, i love the hype and balloons and presents and hugs. i especially love it when its my own birthday :) which is tomorrow!!!
8 hours and 37 minutes to go :D
much love xxxxxxxxx
p.s. i expect lots of comments since it's my birthday tomorrow!
Wednesday, 5 September 2007
Sunday, 2 September 2007
up, up, up and away!
wow and holiday club is over for another year!
the theme this year was aeroplanes which meant alot of model planes and alot of song actions involving pretending to fly!
basically i was leading a small group and also kat and i were doing actions for the songs in the 'runway' sessions (yes the week was full of cheesy plane associations just like that!)
on monday we had set-up day which meant all the team (leaders and teenage helpers) gathered at church to decorate and plan and generally work too hard. we then got our usual pep talk from val (overall leader of holiday club) and then everyone left...except for about a dozen people, including david, kat, pj and i since our parents are main leaders and we got roped into staying to finish some painting and clearing up.
we then of course took refuge in the creche room in order to escape doing any more work and ended up playing with kids toys for a while- during this time vikki (kat and david's amazing cousin) also turned up which was awesome :)
tuesday started the first of four days of full holiday club. this meant the kids were with us from 9.30-12.30 but it felt like alot longer. they had a main 'runway' session with puppets, songs and general fun. then a craft/games session. then small group time (i had to plan and then run this for my small group) and then back into 'runway' for another session with drama, quiz and more songs. then we had to take the kids back to their rooms to dismiss them to parents.
my small group was good, i had 8 kids who all got on and didnt really cause any trouble, i managed to get through most of what i planned each day. i was part of 'Heathrow' which was the 5-6 years old age group. nice kids, tend to listen to you and respond well to stickers and other silly stuff i love.
tuesday evening pj and i held a sleep-out at our house, it was a fun evening invloving alot of silly games, pizza and some inappropriate innuendo on the trampoline lol. although at 1am i decided to go inside and sleep in my own bed since as one of three small group leaders there, i couldnt lead a group on less than 6 hours sleep. the other two were david (who i believe fell asleep relatively quickly) and anna (who decided that 1am was a good time to go on the trampoline with beth and hannah- both of whom didnt have holiday club the next morning).
needless to say we were all tired the next morning but it was good fun.
wednesday was slightly less chaotic than tuesday but still was pretty hectic.
i then went to the cinema with kat, vikki and david to watch the bratz film- before you scoff, we accept that the film is going to be cheesy and rubbish but we know we can laugh at that and find it entertaining.
however you may scoff since it was the second time i saw it in the space of 2 weeks.
then in the evening was mike's birthday bbq which was fun, although i now know it wasnt just me who didnt mesh well with whatsherface. i left pretty early coz i was tired.
thursday is the day of holiday club that is the worst. monday is exciting coz we're setting up, tuesday is the first day with kids, wednesday is when it gets calmer, friday is the last day so always fun. but thursday is the day when your tiredness hits you full on in the face, i had to lean pretty heavily on god to find the energy to get through it.
the 'runway' session was particularly good since david got flanned! we have a tradition in godzone where the leaders get flanned sometimes but there's a strict no-under-18's policy and since david isn't going to be here for the first godzone of term, andy and my mum flanned him at holiday club instead. (i will be here for the first godzone of term, i will be 18, i have no doubt that my nemisis james ross is planning to get me. now i just have to flee the country before sunday 9th)
thursday evening was alot of fun too. nicola, tip, gareth, anna and i went to millets maize maze (a local garden centre plant a whole field of maize and then cut a maze out of it each year) but we went especially for the torchlight session! going round a field in dark is fun! a little scary if you let yourself listen to the noises but since there were alot of people doing it, we just had alot of fun....and maybe cut through the walls of the maze a bit!
then when we'd found all the clues we went to the wizard (clearly a uni student on holiday trying to earn some money) and got our ice-lollies as prizes.
you have to accept that this was a maze aimed at kids, doesnt mean we enjoyed it any less!
we also met some random people who decided that they loved gareth, especially this one girl. turns out they go to fitzharrys and sort of know hannah burfitt (pj's girlfriend).
friday was a looooooooooooooong day!
the morning bit was good, the kids enjoyed it. although one of my kids was particularly hyperactive. luckily i happened to get stevie as an extra teenage helper that morning (if you don't know who stevie is then this will be lost on you....and i also pity you.) and stevie watched him for me.
the end of the morning was a bit of a down but i got to spend alot of time with katy (my 8 year old god-sister. 8 going on 18.)
and then in the afternoon i went home to get some rest...unfortunately i also had to go with anna to tesco's to buy some things we needed for our plan (explained in a minute).
which meant i sat down for maybe 30 minutes in total before having to go back to church.
where alot of people were setting up for the evening holiday club bbq.
it was alot of fun and i got to see alot of kids and parents that i know.
and then anna and i executed our plan.
we gunged andy.
yep, that andy, our youth worker, andy.
hahahahahahahahahahahaha
it was brilliant! we put on capes and masks and flew in from the back and gunged him with porridge, cornflour and baked beans! (all prepared earlier)
unfortunately we hadn't thought the plan through properly....we'd ensured that andy was sat in a paddling pool that would catch all the gunge....we just didnt think what we'd do with the gunge afterwards.
anyway we ended up carrying the paddling pool about 10 metres to tip the gunge down the drain, we then had to wash out the paddling pool and wash around the drain and then let down the paddling pool...all of which took about an hour and a half! (big thanks to joe, richard, mike, pj and hannah who helped us clear all this up!)
i still think it was worth it.
unfortunately a whole week of holiday club, and also busy evenings too, has taken its toll on my body. it reacted how it always does to tiredness- i have a sore throat and a sniffly nose.
i am dosed up and hoping it'll go quickly.
in other news i have more info on how i'll be spending my gap year :) i will be at long furlong on sunday mornings to do kids work and then back in space for the evenings.
should be brilliant to be in a new group, and holiday club gave me a great opportunity to meet alot of the LF kids and leaders.
however i don't start work until monday 10th. which is brilliant! it means i have time to rest up after holiday club, and i have my birthday off too!
its especially good since i have alot of stuff to do for the dinner and dance which is this friday!
i need to send out more tickets, chase some people up about buying tickets, order decorations, sort awards, sort food out. i have alot to do!
but you did read that correctly, it is my birthday this week!
on thursday 6th september to be exact. and i will be turning 18!
i will be able to vote, and legally buy alcohol!
i'm looking forward to going out with my friends too. i have a hair appointment so my hair will look gorgeous and we're going to frankie and benny's (my favourite restaurant!) and having a meal and cocktails and generally a good time :)
anyway i think that's everything i have to write about. wow this is a long post!
i will write more this week no doubt, especially my birthday and the dinner and dance :)
much love xxxxxxx
the theme this year was aeroplanes which meant alot of model planes and alot of song actions involving pretending to fly!
basically i was leading a small group and also kat and i were doing actions for the songs in the 'runway' sessions (yes the week was full of cheesy plane associations just like that!)
on monday we had set-up day which meant all the team (leaders and teenage helpers) gathered at church to decorate and plan and generally work too hard. we then got our usual pep talk from val (overall leader of holiday club) and then everyone left...except for about a dozen people, including david, kat, pj and i since our parents are main leaders and we got roped into staying to finish some painting and clearing up.
we then of course took refuge in the creche room in order to escape doing any more work and ended up playing with kids toys for a while- during this time vikki (kat and david's amazing cousin) also turned up which was awesome :)
tuesday started the first of four days of full holiday club. this meant the kids were with us from 9.30-12.30 but it felt like alot longer. they had a main 'runway' session with puppets, songs and general fun. then a craft/games session. then small group time (i had to plan and then run this for my small group) and then back into 'runway' for another session with drama, quiz and more songs. then we had to take the kids back to their rooms to dismiss them to parents.
my small group was good, i had 8 kids who all got on and didnt really cause any trouble, i managed to get through most of what i planned each day. i was part of 'Heathrow' which was the 5-6 years old age group. nice kids, tend to listen to you and respond well to stickers and other silly stuff i love.
tuesday evening pj and i held a sleep-out at our house, it was a fun evening invloving alot of silly games, pizza and some inappropriate innuendo on the trampoline lol. although at 1am i decided to go inside and sleep in my own bed since as one of three small group leaders there, i couldnt lead a group on less than 6 hours sleep. the other two were david (who i believe fell asleep relatively quickly) and anna (who decided that 1am was a good time to go on the trampoline with beth and hannah- both of whom didnt have holiday club the next morning).
needless to say we were all tired the next morning but it was good fun.
wednesday was slightly less chaotic than tuesday but still was pretty hectic.
i then went to the cinema with kat, vikki and david to watch the bratz film- before you scoff, we accept that the film is going to be cheesy and rubbish but we know we can laugh at that and find it entertaining.
however you may scoff since it was the second time i saw it in the space of 2 weeks.
then in the evening was mike's birthday bbq which was fun, although i now know it wasnt just me who didnt mesh well with whatsherface. i left pretty early coz i was tired.
thursday is the day of holiday club that is the worst. monday is exciting coz we're setting up, tuesday is the first day with kids, wednesday is when it gets calmer, friday is the last day so always fun. but thursday is the day when your tiredness hits you full on in the face, i had to lean pretty heavily on god to find the energy to get through it.
the 'runway' session was particularly good since david got flanned! we have a tradition in godzone where the leaders get flanned sometimes but there's a strict no-under-18's policy and since david isn't going to be here for the first godzone of term, andy and my mum flanned him at holiday club instead. (i will be here for the first godzone of term, i will be 18, i have no doubt that my nemisis james ross is planning to get me. now i just have to flee the country before sunday 9th)
thursday evening was alot of fun too. nicola, tip, gareth, anna and i went to millets maize maze (a local garden centre plant a whole field of maize and then cut a maze out of it each year) but we went especially for the torchlight session! going round a field in dark is fun! a little scary if you let yourself listen to the noises but since there were alot of people doing it, we just had alot of fun....and maybe cut through the walls of the maze a bit!
then when we'd found all the clues we went to the wizard (clearly a uni student on holiday trying to earn some money) and got our ice-lollies as prizes.
you have to accept that this was a maze aimed at kids, doesnt mean we enjoyed it any less!
we also met some random people who decided that they loved gareth, especially this one girl. turns out they go to fitzharrys and sort of know hannah burfitt (pj's girlfriend).
friday was a looooooooooooooong day!
the morning bit was good, the kids enjoyed it. although one of my kids was particularly hyperactive. luckily i happened to get stevie as an extra teenage helper that morning (if you don't know who stevie is then this will be lost on you....and i also pity you.) and stevie watched him for me.
the end of the morning was a bit of a down but i got to spend alot of time with katy (my 8 year old god-sister. 8 going on 18.)
and then in the afternoon i went home to get some rest...unfortunately i also had to go with anna to tesco's to buy some things we needed for our plan (explained in a minute).
which meant i sat down for maybe 30 minutes in total before having to go back to church.
where alot of people were setting up for the evening holiday club bbq.
it was alot of fun and i got to see alot of kids and parents that i know.
and then anna and i executed our plan.
we gunged andy.
yep, that andy, our youth worker, andy.
hahahahahahahahahahahaha
it was brilliant! we put on capes and masks and flew in from the back and gunged him with porridge, cornflour and baked beans! (all prepared earlier)
unfortunately we hadn't thought the plan through properly....we'd ensured that andy was sat in a paddling pool that would catch all the gunge....we just didnt think what we'd do with the gunge afterwards.
anyway we ended up carrying the paddling pool about 10 metres to tip the gunge down the drain, we then had to wash out the paddling pool and wash around the drain and then let down the paddling pool...all of which took about an hour and a half! (big thanks to joe, richard, mike, pj and hannah who helped us clear all this up!)
i still think it was worth it.
unfortunately a whole week of holiday club, and also busy evenings too, has taken its toll on my body. it reacted how it always does to tiredness- i have a sore throat and a sniffly nose.
i am dosed up and hoping it'll go quickly.
in other news i have more info on how i'll be spending my gap year :) i will be at long furlong on sunday mornings to do kids work and then back in space for the evenings.
should be brilliant to be in a new group, and holiday club gave me a great opportunity to meet alot of the LF kids and leaders.
however i don't start work until monday 10th. which is brilliant! it means i have time to rest up after holiday club, and i have my birthday off too!
its especially good since i have alot of stuff to do for the dinner and dance which is this friday!
i need to send out more tickets, chase some people up about buying tickets, order decorations, sort awards, sort food out. i have alot to do!
but you did read that correctly, it is my birthday this week!
on thursday 6th september to be exact. and i will be turning 18!
i will be able to vote, and legally buy alcohol!
i'm looking forward to going out with my friends too. i have a hair appointment so my hair will look gorgeous and we're going to frankie and benny's (my favourite restaurant!) and having a meal and cocktails and generally a good time :)
anyway i think that's everything i have to write about. wow this is a long post!
i will write more this week no doubt, especially my birthday and the dinner and dance :)
much love xxxxxxx
Friday, 24 August 2007
back from isle of wight
it wasnt the most amazing holiday to be honest but i won't go into that. there were some good times though :)
basically i'm about to go to bed since i only just got back and tomorrow i'm off to my cousin's wedding in the morning....not looking forward to that drive but should be a good weekend :)
will write more about holiday soon xxxx
basically i'm about to go to bed since i only just got back and tomorrow i'm off to my cousin's wedding in the morning....not looking forward to that drive but should be a good weekend :)
will write more about holiday soon xxxx
Thursday, 16 August 2007
exam results
just to re-cap, i said:
Psychology- (AS grade- D) i hope i get a D, i'll be very happy with a D in psychology coz i find the exams really hard.
English Language- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C but i didnt do well in the exam i don't think so i'd accept a D.
Theatre Studies- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C, i think i worked hard enough to get a C.
I got CDE which i'm actually feeling ok about.
the C was in English Language which suprised me alot but am very happy with it.
D was in Theatre Studies, i was a bit disappointed with this but actually i got a C in my practical exam and in another module, i just failed the third module and that dragged it down but since the other people in my class also failed that module i know its the exam not me!
E was in psychology, i got U's in the written exams which doesnt suprise me since i've never been able to do those exams. but i'm confused by my coursework mark since my teacher marked it as A/B and it came through as an E. and my teacher thinks that isn't right and i should get it re-marked so that could change.
not that it matters since those grades give me 200 ucas points and i need 160-180 to go to UWE after my gap year so i'm pretty much set :) most of my friends got into their uni of choice i think.
anyway i'm happy, i'm pleased that i worked hard at that showed for the most part, tonight we're gonna celebrate with pizza and champagne :D and then on saturday i go to the isle of wight with hannah, anna and beth so i'm excited about that!
hope you all did ok
much love xxxx
Psychology- (AS grade- D) i hope i get a D, i'll be very happy with a D in psychology coz i find the exams really hard.
English Language- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C but i didnt do well in the exam i don't think so i'd accept a D.
Theatre Studies- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C, i think i worked hard enough to get a C.
I got CDE which i'm actually feeling ok about.
the C was in English Language which suprised me alot but am very happy with it.
D was in Theatre Studies, i was a bit disappointed with this but actually i got a C in my practical exam and in another module, i just failed the third module and that dragged it down but since the other people in my class also failed that module i know its the exam not me!
E was in psychology, i got U's in the written exams which doesnt suprise me since i've never been able to do those exams. but i'm confused by my coursework mark since my teacher marked it as A/B and it came through as an E. and my teacher thinks that isn't right and i should get it re-marked so that could change.
not that it matters since those grades give me 200 ucas points and i need 160-180 to go to UWE after my gap year so i'm pretty much set :) most of my friends got into their uni of choice i think.
anyway i'm happy, i'm pleased that i worked hard at that showed for the most part, tonight we're gonna celebrate with pizza and champagne :D and then on saturday i go to the isle of wight with hannah, anna and beth so i'm excited about that!
hope you all did ok
much love xxxx
Wednesday, 15 August 2007
expanding on new wine...
since i've just read david's huge post about new wine i thought i ought to expand on my week. alot of it feels like a blur but i will do my best!
we left very early (8am- thats very early for me!) on sunday morning and after a coach ride where i got to sleep and then chat to tom, jess and hannah, we arrived. We found our site reletively easily, although it was smaller than expected. set up our tents, pumped up air-beds and had lunch. i also went and visited my parents, the challis' and the ross'. they'd set up their 3 tents and a marquee with a small kitchen/eating area.
then Andy (youth worker) called a meeting to lay the ground rules and then we went off and explored the site some more.
in the evening we went to our evening session in thirst (if you want new wine explained some more then go visit david's blog- djchallis.blogspot.com) it was a good session, good worship too.
monday and tuesday are kind of a blur since i didnt feel very well at all, tiredness didnt help either. i went to one evening session and had a bit of a cry- i let myself feel how scared i am about next year. the unknown terrifies me and so some people prayed for me about that, including kat which was funny coz then i asked if she was ok which made her cry which made me laugh and cry which made her laugh and cry. it was one of those hugs where you're crying but also laughing about it!
wednesday morning i had a good, if awkward, chat with someone and hopefully sorted some stuff out. it was also our day off and so Alison and I organized a hunt the leader game which was cool, i think the Pathfinder crowd (11-14 years) were more into it than the older people but it was still good fun.
and after Thirst in the evening we went and watched Peter and Wayne go speed-dating which was funny coz David and i were watching Peter from a distance and trying to work out which ones he liked, we got 3 out of 4 right :)
Thursday was also a good day, BT got himself a girl and we saw the nicer, sweeter side of him come out which was amazing to watch :) God was obviously working there.
Friday we had the footie tournament which was fun...especially since the Sports Leader guys from Thirst were refereeing and they were cute hehe so that was good! we didn't do amazingly well but our guys played well and put team spirit above competitiveness. despite the opposing team's supporters hurling abuse at us and swearing at us (apparently being on a christian camp doesnt change some things)
it was also David and Katy's birthdays which was wicked coz they had a good time and we all got doughnuts!
Friday and Saturday were weird days, the dynamic of the group changed a bit after the prescence of whatsherface drew the boys away and meant alot of us were ditched and ignored. the boys that weren't drawn away felt confused over why the girls were upset and it just divided the group a bit. it especially means i feel i've lost my best guy mate a bit.
the last night was good, extra long worship session at thirst, good games of mafia and just deepening friendships with some of the girls.
by this point i was very tired, the week was finishing on a weird tension and i was ready to go home. this doesnt mean i didnt have a wicked time, i made some amazing new friendships with people i'd only known slightly, i've been invited to a house group for next year, i got a tan and just enjoyed being in god's presence. but i was ready to leave.
you'll notice that i haven't said much about God so far and that's because i didnt really need anything out of the week. I feel close to God and i know his next plans for me. I was still open to him talking to me but i really felt that this week i just needed to enjoy worshipping him and being able to focus on him, but also just be there to serve him. I wanted to be there to pray for others and to just praise his works around me. Having my parents there felt like a real god-send since my 3 close friends weren't with me this year and i was having to start finding my place in the group without them. Having my parents around meant i still had comfort when i needed it but i wasn't relying on my friends when i was in trouble. which i imagine is alot like what next year is going to be like, i'm going to find new friends and new people to confide in and turn to. But having my mum there especially was amazing, she knew when i needed a hug and when i just needed space, i just felt really blessed to have her in my life and i hope me and her always stay this close. We both know we are friends too, not best friends coz mother and daughter shouldnt be best friends, but good friends at least.
anyway that's my blog about new wine, there's still some stuff left over but i had a good week. the weather was good mostly and i just enjoyed being in that world, looking around and seeing people smile back at you. i love everything about that place and i hope i can continue that closeness with god.
one of the reasons that i'm blogging now is that its wednesday afternoon and in 19 hours i will be going to collect my a-level results. i'm getting nervous and there's nothing on tv until 3pm lol. we're going out for a meal with my grandparents tonight which will also distract me, i just want to know how i did. I mean i worked hard and tried my best which is what matters, it'd just be nice if i got good grades too! i can't think about much else right now, hence why i've been distracting myself with writing a blog and printing out directions for isle of wight holiday.
please please please pray for me, this time last year i thought i'd done ok but i hadnt worked hard and i crashed hard, i didnt do well. whereas this year i turned it around, i did resits and hours of revision and i tried my hardest. i really pray that it shows. Also pray that if i don't do well that i'll see that God must have a reason for it and that things will work out.
just so you know what i need/think i'll get:
Psychology- (AS grade- D) i hope i get a D, i'll be very happy with a D in psychology coz i find the exams really hard.
English Language- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C but i didnt do well in the exam i don't think so i'd accept a D.
Theatre Studies- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C, i think i worked hard enough to get a C.
so basically to go to my uni of choice (when i apply in october/november) i need 160-180 ucas points which is about DDD. i hope i get CCD but would accept CDD.
keep praying and i'll blog tomorrow once i get the results.
much love xxxxxxx
we left very early (8am- thats very early for me!) on sunday morning and after a coach ride where i got to sleep and then chat to tom, jess and hannah, we arrived. We found our site reletively easily, although it was smaller than expected. set up our tents, pumped up air-beds and had lunch. i also went and visited my parents, the challis' and the ross'. they'd set up their 3 tents and a marquee with a small kitchen/eating area.
then Andy (youth worker) called a meeting to lay the ground rules and then we went off and explored the site some more.
in the evening we went to our evening session in thirst (if you want new wine explained some more then go visit david's blog- djchallis.blogspot.com) it was a good session, good worship too.
monday and tuesday are kind of a blur since i didnt feel very well at all, tiredness didnt help either. i went to one evening session and had a bit of a cry- i let myself feel how scared i am about next year. the unknown terrifies me and so some people prayed for me about that, including kat which was funny coz then i asked if she was ok which made her cry which made me laugh and cry which made her laugh and cry. it was one of those hugs where you're crying but also laughing about it!
wednesday morning i had a good, if awkward, chat with someone and hopefully sorted some stuff out. it was also our day off and so Alison and I organized a hunt the leader game which was cool, i think the Pathfinder crowd (11-14 years) were more into it than the older people but it was still good fun.
and after Thirst in the evening we went and watched Peter and Wayne go speed-dating which was funny coz David and i were watching Peter from a distance and trying to work out which ones he liked, we got 3 out of 4 right :)
Thursday was also a good day, BT got himself a girl and we saw the nicer, sweeter side of him come out which was amazing to watch :) God was obviously working there.
Friday we had the footie tournament which was fun...especially since the Sports Leader guys from Thirst were refereeing and they were cute hehe so that was good! we didn't do amazingly well but our guys played well and put team spirit above competitiveness. despite the opposing team's supporters hurling abuse at us and swearing at us (apparently being on a christian camp doesnt change some things)
it was also David and Katy's birthdays which was wicked coz they had a good time and we all got doughnuts!
Friday and Saturday were weird days, the dynamic of the group changed a bit after the prescence of whatsherface drew the boys away and meant alot of us were ditched and ignored. the boys that weren't drawn away felt confused over why the girls were upset and it just divided the group a bit. it especially means i feel i've lost my best guy mate a bit.
the last night was good, extra long worship session at thirst, good games of mafia and just deepening friendships with some of the girls.
by this point i was very tired, the week was finishing on a weird tension and i was ready to go home. this doesnt mean i didnt have a wicked time, i made some amazing new friendships with people i'd only known slightly, i've been invited to a house group for next year, i got a tan and just enjoyed being in god's presence. but i was ready to leave.
you'll notice that i haven't said much about God so far and that's because i didnt really need anything out of the week. I feel close to God and i know his next plans for me. I was still open to him talking to me but i really felt that this week i just needed to enjoy worshipping him and being able to focus on him, but also just be there to serve him. I wanted to be there to pray for others and to just praise his works around me. Having my parents there felt like a real god-send since my 3 close friends weren't with me this year and i was having to start finding my place in the group without them. Having my parents around meant i still had comfort when i needed it but i wasn't relying on my friends when i was in trouble. which i imagine is alot like what next year is going to be like, i'm going to find new friends and new people to confide in and turn to. But having my mum there especially was amazing, she knew when i needed a hug and when i just needed space, i just felt really blessed to have her in my life and i hope me and her always stay this close. We both know we are friends too, not best friends coz mother and daughter shouldnt be best friends, but good friends at least.
anyway that's my blog about new wine, there's still some stuff left over but i had a good week. the weather was good mostly and i just enjoyed being in that world, looking around and seeing people smile back at you. i love everything about that place and i hope i can continue that closeness with god.
one of the reasons that i'm blogging now is that its wednesday afternoon and in 19 hours i will be going to collect my a-level results. i'm getting nervous and there's nothing on tv until 3pm lol. we're going out for a meal with my grandparents tonight which will also distract me, i just want to know how i did. I mean i worked hard and tried my best which is what matters, it'd just be nice if i got good grades too! i can't think about much else right now, hence why i've been distracting myself with writing a blog and printing out directions for isle of wight holiday.
please please please pray for me, this time last year i thought i'd done ok but i hadnt worked hard and i crashed hard, i didnt do well. whereas this year i turned it around, i did resits and hours of revision and i tried my hardest. i really pray that it shows. Also pray that if i don't do well that i'll see that God must have a reason for it and that things will work out.
just so you know what i need/think i'll get:
Psychology- (AS grade- D) i hope i get a D, i'll be very happy with a D in psychology coz i find the exams really hard.
English Language- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C but i didnt do well in the exam i don't think so i'd accept a D.
Theatre Studies- (AS grade- C) i hope i get a C, i think i worked hard enough to get a C.
so basically to go to my uni of choice (when i apply in october/november) i need 160-180 ucas points which is about DDD. i hope i get CCD but would accept CDD.
keep praying and i'll blog tomorrow once i get the results.
much love xxxxxxx
Sunday, 12 August 2007
i'm back from new wine!!!!
it was a packed week :) it was the week of cold nights, cool worship, the girl who tamed BT, pj and hannah's anniversary, new friendships, footie competitions, whatsherface, sunny days, mafia and lots and lots of fun!
i had such a good time, nothing amazing happened God-wise but that's ok coz i didnt need anything major to happen, i just enjoyed praising Him and spending more time with Him.
i built up some new friendships and got a glimpse at what next year might be like without Anna, Hannah and Beth and it might actually be ok. I have Tom and Wayne, plus new people like Aidan, Katrina, David etc. I'm feeling exhausted but very happy. I was ready to come home, it was just way too cold at night, very difficult to sleep!
having my parents, the challis' and the ross' around was brilliant, it meant when i was tired i really could have a mum-hug and it was just another area to escape to and i wasnt the only one to escape there for food etc!
i will try and remember to write in more detail about the week but am too tired right now!
4 days to results :S please pray for me.
much love xxxxxx
i had such a good time, nothing amazing happened God-wise but that's ok coz i didnt need anything major to happen, i just enjoyed praising Him and spending more time with Him.
i built up some new friendships and got a glimpse at what next year might be like without Anna, Hannah and Beth and it might actually be ok. I have Tom and Wayne, plus new people like Aidan, Katrina, David etc. I'm feeling exhausted but very happy. I was ready to come home, it was just way too cold at night, very difficult to sleep!
having my parents, the challis' and the ross' around was brilliant, it meant when i was tired i really could have a mum-hug and it was just another area to escape to and i wasnt the only one to escape there for food etc!
i will try and remember to write in more detail about the week but am too tired right now!
4 days to results :S please pray for me.
much love xxxxxx
Friday, 3 August 2007
sorry!
for not blogging much...again...its just that this week hasnt been that eventful. i saw beth and kat alot which has been lovely, and i had dinner with kate last night. but mostly this week has been building up to the amazing event that is new wine!
*fanfare and cheers and parade music*
i'm really looking forward to it actually, part of me's scared that without beth, hannah or anna there then it wont be so good but i think it actually means i get to know other friends better i.e. mike, pete harvey, hannah b, jess, tom, wayne, aidan, peter b and all the other cool people that are going (apologies if you werent on the list it was not intentional, do not be upset)
and also means i'll have more chance to move into my role as a leader next year and also to focus on god alot this week :)
my parents will be around too which will be nice, if i feel too lonely i can always mosey on up to see them.
today has been an ok day, went shopping with kate and played a game with the family but alot of it was ruined by the fact that my wisdom teeth are coming through and although it hasnt hurt too much up until now, one of them if very painful and its not nice!
tomorrow i'll be packing and getting everything together for new wine, i'll try and post on sunday morning right before we leave and as soon as i get back :)
until then, much love xxxxxxxxx
p.s. my hairspray movie soundtrack finally arrived today, its awesome!! (david and peter, its the same sort of excitement you felt when you got resi 4...just so you can relate!) i need to upload it to my mp3 player for the coach ride :)
*fanfare and cheers and parade music*
i'm really looking forward to it actually, part of me's scared that without beth, hannah or anna there then it wont be so good but i think it actually means i get to know other friends better i.e. mike, pete harvey, hannah b, jess, tom, wayne, aidan, peter b and all the other cool people that are going (apologies if you werent on the list it was not intentional, do not be upset)
and also means i'll have more chance to move into my role as a leader next year and also to focus on god alot this week :)
my parents will be around too which will be nice, if i feel too lonely i can always mosey on up to see them.
today has been an ok day, went shopping with kate and played a game with the family but alot of it was ruined by the fact that my wisdom teeth are coming through and although it hasnt hurt too much up until now, one of them if very painful and its not nice!
tomorrow i'll be packing and getting everything together for new wine, i'll try and post on sunday morning right before we leave and as soon as i get back :)
until then, much love xxxxxxxxx
p.s. my hairspray movie soundtrack finally arrived today, its awesome!! (david and peter, its the same sort of excitement you felt when you got resi 4...just so you can relate!) i need to upload it to my mp3 player for the coach ride :)
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