got alot of things to do

but first i'll tell you how the balls went. larkmead one i expected to be good and it was :) good fun with my single girls, we danced ALOT!
john mason ball i didnt expect to be so good but it was alot of fun. once the wind died down it wasnt that cold (we were on a boat) and i had a laugh with megan, hannah, lucy, gareth and nicola :)

however its 3 days until i go to america and i got stuff i need to do:
- rip cds for mp3 player
- organize mp3 player
- godzone bbq
- violet group coffee morning
- create rest of dance for youth service
- drama practice for youth service
- wash clothes for america
- organize clothes for america
- pack for america

and then before i know it tuesday will be here and we'll be going to AMERICA!!!
i'm soooooo excited!!!
anyway gotta go :)
much love xxxxxx

five down!! ALL DONE!!

its all done!!!!!!!!!!
all my exams are over :D no more revision or horrible long exams!
got a ball tonight and a ball tomorrow and then on tuesday i go to america!
i cant really believe it to be honest.
woooooooohoooooooo!!!!!!!

i love my life :D i'm going to go watch some tv and then start getting ready for the larkmead ball tonight!
much love xxxxxx

faith revelation

i've read two books these last couple of days and they are part of a series, i havent even read them in order hehe but i really learned alot from them.

they were about this family that go through alot of tough things but rely on god.
and it wasnt the relying on god part that got to me coz i rely on god alot. it was the way they prayed.
in bed going to sleep, they prayed. when one of the guys hugged his wife, he prayed for them. everything they did, they prayed.
i pray to god when i need him or when i need to rant at someone.
simple every day things i tend to leave out.

so i decided to make a decision, an effort to pray more. and to be open about praying more. i want to pray about everything, an open conversation with god.
it isnt going to be easy. even today i've ignored him on several occasions.
even tonight when i was at the vertigo event i saw a cute guy and got distracted from god. it sounds so stupid and shallow but its those things that i let get in the way.

i was also praying about a friend and proverbs 31 came to mind. its all about being a woman of god. i've always thought of myself as a child of god. but i also have to realise that i am a woman of god too. i am growing up and i want to be someone god is proud of, someone he raised well. i want to be a living example of him.

it is not going to be an overnight change but i want to do it.
i really want to be passionate for god. not just go to new wine, spring harvest, do my gap year, kind of passionate in phases. i want to be on-fire for him.

i've got an idea to ask a friend of mine if we can be accountable to each other. each week we can talk through how things are going. i have a new-found inspiration for god. especially in the midst of my exams, i'm turning to him in ways i havent before.

anyway i ought to go get some sleep! got more revision to do tomorrow and a drama to write. pray for me that this seed god has planted the last couple of days continues to grow.
its not a major revelation like the blog title suggests, its almost a renewal of passion for god.

much love xxxx

three down, two to go!

and its over.
psychology is finally over.

the exams went....ok.
the first part was alright, the second part went horribly but the third part went well. so hoping it all averages out and i do ok.

but since i cant change it now i'm going to try not to worry about it too much.
at least psychology is now officially over.

only two more exams left and they arent until next week!
i get to enjoy hannah's birthday with her tomorrow and also hang out with beth friday evening after she gets her final results...oooh scary stuff!

anyway thanks for the prayers and hope you are all ok!
much love xxxxx

so much for that

i've got my psych exam this afternoon and i'm very stressed out about it.
went into school for some revision lessons yesterday which helped a bit but i'm still feeling very under-prepared. i hate taking psychology exams, i cant do them. and i know i'll be sat that with nothing to write just staring at the clock.

ok i have taken a deep breath now. i'm not panicking but i'm still worried.
hannah is coming round at 10am to go over some stuff together and calm down together.

i really hate exams, this is the point where i'm not half way through yet, by this afternoon i'll feel better coz i'll be past that half way mark and closer to finishing, leaving school properly and going to america.

anyone who happens to read this before 3.30pm please be praying very hard for me. would really appreciate it! xxxx

so far so good

my ball dress is finished, cells went well tonight, only one exam this week and slight lie-in tomorrow.
things are going well :D

saw beth's play last night, it was amazing! i was so proud of her, it was silly hehe but i really was!
and then space cells tonight were good, new guy leader person wayne was brilliant, really honest and open and funny. he fitted in well :)

tomorrow i'm sleeping in a bit (mostly due to the fact i'm up a little late tonight talking to someone online) and then doing some revision, then hannah w and beth are coming round for some chill out time. then some more revision.

tuesday i've got lots of revision, including a drop-in revision lesson. and hannah s is probably coming round for some joint revision sessions.

then wednesday is my last psychology exam ever! we'll see what happens...

thursday is hannah swift's birthday so i'm doing some revision then seeing her and going out in the evening with people for that. i've also got charlie (my dog) during the day which will be nice.

friday is a nice chill out day, bit of revision, bit of sleep and tv.

then its the weekend and before i know it my last exams will be here, the balls will have happened and i'll have cried lots and then i'm going to america!!

hehe its so close i love it :D
anyway i'm off. much love xxxxx

two down, three to go!

did my theatre studies exam today. possibly the one i felt most confident about but of course as soon as i was waiting outside the gym i got all nervous.
as it turns out they were such good questions, and i think i did well :)

i'm about to go out shopping with my mum....although the rain is horrible :( meh i hate it when the weather contradicts my mood!

i'm out babysitting tonight and watching 'britain's got talent' its rubbish yet so good!!
hope all your exams are going well too!
much love xxxxx