the complex infrastructure known as the female mind...

ok so wednesday completely tired me out. i'm still aching from the physical theatre workshop! but it was really good :)
then the play in warwick was amaaaaaaaaaaaazing!!!! so so so so so good!!! and the trip there and back was funny, i went with my friend cassie and our teacher laura who's 25 and very funny and lovely hehe.

anyway tiredness lead to me having a minor breakdown last night after my darling brother went to bed without tidying any of our 'shared' playroom which meant i had to do it all and i was so tired that it made me cry out of anger and frustration (its ok now, he's apologised and is gonna wash my car to pay me back yay!)

today is a better day, despite raining this morning. i performed in the larkmead whole school assembly, my knees were shaking, i hate it when i can see the audience. however it went well :)
in psychology we started to make the boxes for our dolls (its all about gender development so it has to be aimed at boys and girls).

i'm still tired today but its a good day. the weekend is here and i am about to go pick up kate and go shopping!!! retail therapy is always good!!!

much love xxxxxxxxxx

p.s. on a god note, i have found solidarity in two of my friends who are amazing and are supporting me. i'm starting to trust god more with my prayers and i want to change my attitude which is the first step towards actually doing it. thankyou for praying for me :)

thankyou

...to those who prayed. i slept a bit better last night. still not great, but better.
please continue to pray, i've got a long day tomorrow consisting of drama workshop, drama rehearsals and then going to warwick to watch a theatre performance in the evening. so basically alot of theatre/drama stuff!!

i thank Him too for helping me sleep. i prayed to Him and it helped. i guess i lost faith in prayer recently, i only pray when i need something and even then i think i lost faith that my prayer would be answered.
i guess i need to remember that all prayers are answered, just sometimes the answer is no. i've stopped praying the way i was taught at sunday school too, no 'Dear God' or 'Amen'. just an open, uncensored chat with Him. i think its better that way though. its more real....more me.

anyway before i go to bed, just wanted to share my excitement coz i'm involved in organizing a fairtrade 'lift the label' fashion show in about a month, and we managed to confirm all the models tonight and things are really starting to get going! lots of work still to do, choreography and rehearsals and planning, but its all very exciting :)

that's all for today folks, you may get a post tomorrow but since i may not get back until midnight from this play, its iffy! probably post again on thursday xxx