He's ok, stable, awake, eating meals and everything!
Grandpa does like to scare us!
I'm feeling a whole lot better today...exhausted though.
I think yesterday I just got a real wave of grief again, and the thought of leaving Mum and Dad whilst it was happening was horrible.
But it's over now, Grandpa is fine (or back to where he was!) and I'm packed and ready to go!
I know that something might happen whilst we're away but we're actually away at that point, it was the idea of physically walking through the airport and leaving my parents that scared me I think.
But at this point I'm hoping that Grandpa can hold on at least another 24 hours until we've left and then I don't have to worry about it.
I'm not sure my emotions are logical and looking back now I cried loads last night (so much so that I woke up with a crying hangover...feels like a hangover but it's from crying not drinking) which seems so dramatic today but I was so sad and scared and emotional yesterday, even though I wanted to feel ok, I just couldn't. I couldn't pull myself out of it.
But it's all alright now...
I'm praying it stays that way :)
I am excited to go, especially now I'm packed but part of me won't let myself get excited until we're actually in the airport about to go, because I've seen the situation dramatically change already and I don't want to set myself up for a big swing of emotions if it changes again!
Right, I'm going to spend my evening watching TV, chilling with the family and then get an early night!
I probably won't blog again until I'm there :D so look forward to my next blog from America!!!
Much love xxx
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