This past weekend was the CU weekend away...I was co-organiser this year which meant alot of preparation work. Which is one of the reasons I haven't blogged in a month...very busy with placement, uni and CU stuff!
But after all the stress and planning and hard work, we got there...56 members of the CU altogether to learn more about God, get to know each other better and get some time away.
And I had the best time ever :D I got a chance to just stop and hang out with my friends, to worship God and build better relationships with people. I laughed ALOT, I cried a little but mostly I got to escape. I got to live in a world where I didn't have to think about placement or assignments or worry about admin jobs for the CU...I sat and talked with my friends, I had an impromtu pillow fight, I played stupid icebreaker games, I ate yummy food, I held a fake family group conference for a fake CU family with fake family issues all as part of an inside joke....I was happy :)
But now I'm home and I'm tired and I'm realising that I'm back to reality.
A reality where I'm not loving my placement, it's gotten better but I still don't really want to go in to work...
A reality where I have two presentations, 3 essays and a disseration to do...all of which I keep putting off because I can't be bothered to do the work...
A reality where I still have a million jobs to do for CU and exec meetings to attend...
A reality where all I do is stumble through the week, not having enough time to see my friends, wishing that my days at placement would go faster, knowing that deadlines are creeping up, desperately wanting it to be the weekend again...and then I get to the weekend and all I do is crash out, do not enough work and then suddenly it's monday again...
I'm not quite sure how to remedy this. How to rebalance my life in order to cope. How to make more time to see my friends and do things that will make my last year at uni more enjoyable. I guess I'm feeling a little lonely too. I miss having PJ around, I don't have the time or energy to see my friends enough socially (I only see them at CU), and I really need to get some work done!
The CU weekend away showed me that there's more to life than just mundanely stumbling through your week in the hope that May of next year will come quicker. That making time to just sit and drink hot chocolate with my friends actually makes me really happy. Now I just have to work out how to translate that back into reality.
Much love xxx
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