i so hate consequences

i'm eating ice cream that i know probably isnt great for me but i couldnt care less. its triple chocolate ice cream!!!

i love having the freedom of being able to drive to waitrose coz i really fancy some ice cream. i even dragged my brother along too!

am feeling better today. was ill yesterday but am better today, still tired but whats new! got a meeting at andy and emma's in 30 mins, we're meeting with the models for the lift the label fashion show. should be good :)

anywho, i'm off to enjoy my ice cream and listen to some good old-fashioned reliant k! (notice i'm keeping up the title theme!)

much love xxxxxxxxxxxx

breakdown

well that was a lovely evening (feel the sarcasm dripping from that statement)

i thought my cell went ok tonight, we were a bit giggly and chatty but we managed to get through it all and have a good discussion in the word part.
i also had a really good chat with one of my cell members at the end, got quite deep but thats always good.

i originally wrote and posted a long rant about my talk with andy and emma (i'm not in a good mood about it) but to be completely honest i'm worried someone might report back to them about it. which is a shame coz i kinda wanted this blog to be open but i can't talk completely openly about this subject.

so i'm off to bed.
night xxxx

maybe its maybelline

when girls get together with alot of junk food and some very silly games its bound to be a night of fun :)

especially if a camera is there too!

we had ALOT of food...it helps that megan and anna work at bakers oven!

altogether there was me, anna, megan, natalie, leanne and cassie.

we ate food, watched movies, played stupid games, took weird pictures:

anyway i gotta go, pancake day at beth's house! wooooooooo!

more pictures and food :D

much love xxxxxxxxxxxxx

the complex infrastructure known as the female mind...

ok so wednesday completely tired me out. i'm still aching from the physical theatre workshop! but it was really good :)
then the play in warwick was amaaaaaaaaaaaazing!!!! so so so so so good!!! and the trip there and back was funny, i went with my friend cassie and our teacher laura who's 25 and very funny and lovely hehe.

anyway tiredness lead to me having a minor breakdown last night after my darling brother went to bed without tidying any of our 'shared' playroom which meant i had to do it all and i was so tired that it made me cry out of anger and frustration (its ok now, he's apologised and is gonna wash my car to pay me back yay!)

today is a better day, despite raining this morning. i performed in the larkmead whole school assembly, my knees were shaking, i hate it when i can see the audience. however it went well :)
in psychology we started to make the boxes for our dolls (its all about gender development so it has to be aimed at boys and girls).

i'm still tired today but its a good day. the weekend is here and i am about to go pick up kate and go shopping!!! retail therapy is always good!!!

much love xxxxxxxxxx

p.s. on a god note, i have found solidarity in two of my friends who are amazing and are supporting me. i'm starting to trust god more with my prayers and i want to change my attitude which is the first step towards actually doing it. thankyou for praying for me :)

thankyou

...to those who prayed. i slept a bit better last night. still not great, but better.
please continue to pray, i've got a long day tomorrow consisting of drama workshop, drama rehearsals and then going to warwick to watch a theatre performance in the evening. so basically alot of theatre/drama stuff!!

i thank Him too for helping me sleep. i prayed to Him and it helped. i guess i lost faith in prayer recently, i only pray when i need something and even then i think i lost faith that my prayer would be answered.
i guess i need to remember that all prayers are answered, just sometimes the answer is no. i've stopped praying the way i was taught at sunday school too, no 'Dear God' or 'Amen'. just an open, uncensored chat with Him. i think its better that way though. its more real....more me.

anyway before i go to bed, just wanted to share my excitement coz i'm involved in organizing a fairtrade 'lift the label' fashion show in about a month, and we managed to confirm all the models tonight and things are really starting to get going! lots of work still to do, choreography and rehearsals and planning, but its all very exciting :)

that's all for today folks, you may get a post tomorrow but since i may not get back until midnight from this play, its iffy! probably post again on thursday xxx

sleep.....

i haven't slept well the last 5-ish nights. especially the last two nights when i needed it most.
now i'm back at school and i'm drained and tired and not concentrating.
it sucks and i'm praying that tonight i sleep well coz i don't have to get up until 9.30 tomorrow which is fab!
those who believe, please pray i sleep. i have had problems with sleep in the past, dunno what it is but every now and then i'll get a patch where for a couple of weeks i can't sleep. this time is the worst of the lot. could be stress, if it continues i don't know what to do. i'm feeling so drained. i don't want it to affect my school work. especially with exams coming up.

that having all been said, i am off to bed! night xxxx

once a wasp always a wasp

and it was a fantastic match!
london wasps vs sale sharks
we were down 13-10 at half time i think, then in the second half we brought it back to a final score of 26-18
woohoo!!!
and i'm soooo tired! i havent been sleeping well so last night i took a nytol (sleeping tablet thing) which usually knock me out for a good 10-12 hours. i slept about 7 :(

back to school tomorrow. i've got some good theatre trips on this term, and of course my english dissertation final draft to come. oh and then there's my theatre studies final practical exam at the end of the term!!

however i am very excited as it looks like i may be going to america after exams!!! it may mean i miss one or both of the larkmead/jms balls. but i'll be back for leavers day and its america for goodness sakes!!!!

now i am off to crash out on the sofa and watch some tv hehe night xxxxxxx

p.s. while i remember, can you go check out this band www.myspace.com/elliotminor
they're called Elliot Minor, they are amazing, supported mcfly one night on their tour, just got a record contract, and their video is currently being played on the box and kerrang. and i know these guys, they are lovely, i'm one of about 250 people on their street team and they phoned me from L.A. to say thanks and see how i am!
single is called parallel worlds and its out april 2nd, just go check out the song for me please, if you like it great, if not don't worry!